Chapter 1.
Is the fifthteen time i see this building, problably the 100th time i saw on this whole year.My name? I'm almost sure that you are not interested on my name, well my name is Lia , weird name i know you dont need to say that. I live on Portland.I've 15 years old, and I discovered i have cancer and i have 1 year to live.They say is always a chance to get better, but i dont believe that, doctors do the worst thing they could ever do , they give you hope, like a stone is almost falling abyss and they try " hey there is always a chance to you get better, you've to believe in yourself" but come on what is the chance that i get better? exactly ,none.Sometimes i think will be better die after you discovered you have cancer at live with the idea you can explode every minute,every second, every breath.They look at me ,like i'm poor dog, but the truth? I'm so much better than them they have to live with the idea they failed and you have to live with the idea you are just nothing. I ask to my mother to not put on grave " taken too soon " i've taken in the right time not because some funny person who they believe have controle over our lifes called ' god ' take me, no , i'm going in the time i want.
Remember the building i was talking about? Yeah the hospital , i love hospitals, who doesnt love right? Today i tried to kill myself i think i was just full with everything,and maybe its easily do that. But of course not , the perfect normals doctors and ' friends' come to see me and tell me " why you have done that ? are you stupid? you never do that again . " as if that words will help me. Illusions.The one thing that cancer teaches you is ignore them , and try live your life like you wanted to live if you have the enough time.
