i worked up the courage to look in josh's desk, i found a ring.
an engagement ring.
it's diamond, gorgeous.
he was going to propose.
the love of my life was going to propose to me. my life was going to be complete. i could have helped him.
i cried to simon all afternoon, we've really been helping each other lately. he smoked twice while i was there, it's getting bad. he smokes a pack a day usually now.
he's suffering so bad.
i feel so bad.
this boy doesnt deserve this. none of the boys do.
-freya bradley. i will still say i married him, because i should have.
