On the grass field, in a windy afternoon, we both enjoy sky-gazing. The sun drowning. It's twilight. The light starts fade away.
Quiet.
Quiet.
Nobody is talking.
He starts getting bored.
"How about we did something more than this?" he asked.
"What do you mean?" I replied with curiosity.
"Something nasty."
"Wait, what?"
On a glance, he just stare to my eyes. Seems like universe starts freezing. And then he put his lips on mine. A very light kiss, too fast to realize.
I stunned. My heart is beating really fast.
"Would you?" he asked again.
Without words, I nodded. I let him do everything he wants. It's like I sold my soul to demon.
It's a sin. A very beautiful one.
He pulled me closer and we did it all over again. His hand moves on my body, exploring.
I'm heating up. My knees are shaking. And he's getting hard.
"I'm not ready," I said, gasping for breath.
"But you want it," he said, softly.
"I do. I really do," I replied. "But, it's my first time. I'm so scared. In another side, I'm curious about how it feels."
"Then, just enjoyed it. I'm not going to hurt you," he promised. "Just relax."
He puts it inside and start moving. We both quiet but his eyes told me that everything is going to be fine. I hold my breath, it's painful at first but then I realized how good it is.
He asked me to wrapped my legs around his waist. He said, "I feel nothing but warm," then smiling.
"You jerk!" I said. "But I want more. Please, go deeper!"
He pull out and thrust with power, but still gently. Sweat flooded all over body, but we didn't care. The sky is getting dark, but we didn't paying much attention.
"I almost there," I said.
"Hold, let's finish this together." Within second, he pulled out and throw his seeds on my legs.
I can't barely breath, my eyes closed and feel the pleasure. Then I opened my eyes. The sun has drowned completely, left the dark sky with stars constelations behind.
And you, beside me.
"It's a sin. A very beautiful one," I whispered to myself.
- Surabaya, July 20th 2018
