Broken

Chapter 14: without

Okay so just a warning, I only got like 3 hours of sleep last night and I'm really tired so this chapter might be awful.

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Louis p.o.v.

And once again, it was time for the oldest member of One Direction to take charge. I was hoping that Liam would resume his role as daddy direction but no such luck.

After reading the story about Carlos trying to commit suicide and James getting kidnapped, everyone looked at me to see what we should do.

In all honesty, I didn't really know. But, for the sake of the boys, I had to pretend to.

Just as I was about to figure out what everyone should do, my phone rang. It was management.

"Modest," I explained to the boys, walking out of the room.

"Hello?" I said.

"Hi Louis," came the voice of Jack, one of my least favorite members of modest.

"We heard about Niall. How are you all doing?" he asked sweetly.

"How the fuck do you think we're doing our best friend almost died and he won't even let us touch him," I spat through the phone.

"I'm sorry about Niall, but, you as a professional, know that we have business to do," Jack sighed.

"God Jack we can't do anything without Niall," I said angrily.

"I knew you were going to be like this. I should have called Liam," he said, somewhat to himself.

"No, because Liam would've said the same thing. The other boys are taking this hard, I'm the only one who can hold a steady conversation without crying. Just tell me what we have to do," I said exasperatedly, knowing we didn't have a choice.

"At least one of you has to hold a press conference to tell everyone whats going on. We'll talk again before then to decide how much you can really tell. You've got an interview with Hollywire on Tuesday which all of you need to attend. I cancelled your photo shoot. And you're tour starts back up again in two weeks. We postponed and rescheduled everything," Jack said.

"I'll do the press conference, and we can do the interview, but we're not doing concerts without Niall," I said firmly.

"We'll talk later okay? Theirs reporters here," Jack sighed.

"Fine. Goodbye," I said roughly, hanging up before Jack had a chance to say anything else.

I felt a lump form in my throat and swallowed hard. God now I have to go tell the boys. Niall's asleep so I that's okay. He can not know for sure.

I took a few deep breaths until I was sure I could get through the speech without crying and headed back into Niall's room.

When I shut the door behind me, all three boys turned to look at me. Harry gave me a sympathetic smile, pushing himself out of his chair and starting to walk over to me.

"Well?" Liam asked.

I opened my mouth to start telling them what we had to do, but it didn't exactly work.

Next thing I knew I was crying. Tears streaming down my face, sobs racking my body. And then I felt strong arms wrap around me.

"Shh, you're okay boo," Harry said, holding me close to him. He let go for a few seconds to walk over to his chair and pull me down onto his lap. I buried my face in his chest and cried.

I'd tried so hard not to cry while we were here. Tried to be strong for the boys but it had all built up and gotten to be too much.

"You're alright Lou. It's okay, calm down," Harry whispered in my ear until I calmed down.

Finally, I stopped crying and pulled away from Harry, taking a deep breath.

"You've been so strong Lou. What happened?" he asked quietly.

"I just," I sighed. "It just got to be too much Haz. I've tried so hard to be brave for you guys but I really just needed to do that. I'm sorry," I said, looking down.

"Hey," Harry said, moving my chin so I looked at him. "You can't be strong forever Lou. We all break sometimes. You've done so good love. We are all so thankful you've been able to keep your head about this whole thing," Harry said.

"Thank you," I said quietly.

"What did Jack say?" Zayn asked softly.

"I have to do a press conference in a few days, we've got an interview and tour resumes in two weeks," I said in one breath, trying not to start crying all over again.

"What?" Harry gasped.

"No," Liam said.

"We can't do this without Niall!" Zayn exclaimed.

"We have to," I sighed.

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Sorry that was bad. Four more chapters until the secret is revealed!!