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Kim Jaehwan 워너원

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I've being told that I looked so ugly in the past. That past was a totally dark past for me. Back then, I lost my confident 100% and I couldn't even stand up to encourage myself to be a better person. Whenever I attended to school, the very first words what people greeted me morning was 'hey, Turner Syndrome'. Just like that, people around the school made fun of me for having a fake syndrome. Of course I was hurt, wanted to committed suicide for sure. Suicide was my first option risking to end my life. I'm not worthy to live here anymore.

However, God and my parents have always tried to stop me for doing suicide. I've tried so many times ,but they pulled me back. How should I say? Like they wanted me to be alive and not to take mg life away by myself. I know committed suicide is a false action, especially.

Everyday, people have always cussed me bad things. For example, they wanted to make me feel small, feel bad, feel dirty and feel the lowest of the lowest. In term of the lowest, it was when the school had it's examinations. Everyday and everynight, I've study so hard to take the first place of the school or either the first in class.

You know what did those bullies did before the day of exam? They told me to fail my test or else they would ruin my life. If I do so well in exam, I would achieve my dream. But, if I fail I wouldn't pursue my dream. If I do well in exam, they would be mad at me. And...if I fail they would be happy about everything. Wouldn't even thanked me to safe their highest grades.

Because of that my parents beat me up and locked me inside my room to study 24 hours. It was truly torturing. I can only stepped out of the room for taking a shower, eating and that's it. Nothing more. As the only daughter and the only child of the family, how can the parents tortured their child?

That was how I gained my anger and hatred towards them. I really hate my parents. I really do. They just wanted their child to be the number one of the school like they did in their school days. Little didn't they knew that I've writing a lot of problems inside my ten diaries everyday and every night. About how I needed to kill myself, how I could kill my parents out of hatred, how I really desperate to be the top student of the school.

All of that, I shouldn't be doing to my life.

But, I've changed when I finally...finally changed to a new school. Howong High School. Before the day I entered the school, my mother suddenly became a kind person whom I knew when I was 5. She told me that she heard about me in my old school.

Well, there was one day when I was still locked in my room, she came to the school, wanted to talk to the principal and the counseling teacher about me. The teachers were the nicest people in the school. They said they also had a few students were just like me and they ended up transferring to other schools. The principal suggested my mother to let me to change school for my own good.

After the meeting, my parents had a talk without me. They had cried about the fact fact I got bullied everyday, "I'm so sorry we couldn't protect you at the first place, " my father said, "we should've trusted you, " he said that because he couldn't even trust my actions and my behavior since I'm a young teenager. Also I am still his baby. I know that, but I am a mature student who already knew about how to control my own life.

(First Day of Howong High School)

"Good morning, (y/n). Nice to meet you, " the very first person whom ever greeted me morning. I was too shy, couldn't even talked to her. So, I just nodded, "which school did you joined before this school? " I took a small sticky note from my pencil case, wrote down the school's name, "Kwon High School!? Yo! That's the dirtiest school! Why did you transferred here? " she asked again, and I wrote a few words as a summary, "I got bullied, " she said softly, flicked her eyes to me.