you know those first days of school when you don't have real classes, like, the teacher just talks about a bunch of shit, ask us our names (even though he is not going to remember it next day), and that's all?
Those are the worst days for me... everything is about those fucking days: first impressions to the teachers, seeing who will be your crime partner and the blood suckers. those days are the ones when I decide I'm better of alone.
see, they say in high school it's all about the looks. I wish it was true. it's not just about looks. it's about popularity, inteligence, competition and being respected for the wrong reasons. everyone tries to succeed using others to get what they want. I dont have the good look, neither do I have popularity or respect, but I do have the inteligence. and everybody "loves" me for that. fucking blood suckers.
so, during my first day those who already know me tried to make their way back into my live after ditching me all summer, and those who didn't know me didn't give a fuck.
I went back home, making the same way I did for years. I swear I could close my eyes and walk down that road without tripping. I always took 15 minutes to get home but under the burning sun it seemed like the walk was to much longer and I was sweating like a pig!
Just as I walked in, my mother was on the hall waiting for me "How did it go? Did you make any friends? What about classes? Did you cause any trouble?"
I walked past her and started walking to my room but before I could walk in she grabbed my arm and made me turn around.
"Anna Luise Montenegro! I'm your mother and you don't get to ignore me like that!" I flinched at the use of my full name. seriously, who the hell names her child with such an awful name? and don't even say that she didn't have time! She had plenty of time: while her and my dad were... making me (I just can't say it) and while she was 9 months waiting for me to get out.
Don't get me wrong. I love my mom but she gets to my nerves and fucks with them. Well, just get this over so that I can get to my room and be alone.
"If you knew me well enough, you'd know from the moment I walked through that door that today went just like hell to me" I shake my arm from her hold making her nails dig into my skin. I grabbed the knob, opening my room's door and walked straight to my bed . I looked at my arm that was slightly bleeding. That would leave a mark. Better on the outside that on the inside...
I skipped dinner that night. I have done the same thing countless times these past month. I just couldn't bare anything in my stomach and I was trying to loose weight. At dinner time, my thoughts were the only food entering my body and feeding my soul
Lets see what Mr. Universe has planned for tomorrow
a/n: hey guys!! just wanted to let you know that its going to be hard to update the next days because i'm on vacations right now. while wainting, go follow @lilac_inblue and read her new fanfic "arrival". she is one of the best writters and friends that i've come know. give her a chance!
i want to thank you all the support and positive comments that i've received from you! love you all xx
