Regrets? (Bts jungkook VS Jin) oneshot

The begin

"Miss its advised that you should do the surgery" said the doctor to me.

I shook my head. Trying to deny the fact.
"No.. I can't. It can't... not now.." I panic

The doctor looked serious.
"I am sorry but it's really needed. It's better to try then leave it alone and die for sure however it's your choice. What shall it be?"

I sighed... I saw my memories flashing a bit by.
Especially the face of jungkook pops up in my mind.

How am I gonna tell him? What I am gonna tell him?
He will die inside if he knows this fact. Especially.. when I die by this surgery.

How can this even happen? Am I gonna follow my mom?
But I must make this choice.. I must try even the fact that the chance that I survive the surgery is small..

"Alright.. I agree.."

"Okay, then we will plan a date to do a preparation for the surgery. I will see you soon" said the doctor.

I stood up and grabbed my bag.
"Ah yes.. thank you"

I went out of the office.
I am being tortured thinking by the fact that I have to figure out what I am gonna do now..

I went to the park and sat down by the bench. Looked out to the river.
"What I am gonna do?"

I am scared. I don't know how jungkook is gonna react when I tell him about this..
but he is doing so well right now with his career.

He slowly getting for fame and recognition for his music and voice.
As he makes music together with his group called BTS.

I just wish that I don't have to tell him at all.. but if I don't tell and suddenly die in my surgery....

It will turn his world upside down and his career... he won't be able to focus on it... as he will be drowned in sadness.

After all I know how it feels to lose somebody so precious...
Now I am on my way to follow her path..
seriously mom.. I just had to have the same surgery and same problem as you...

It really messed me up.. when you died and left me behind... unwilling...
It was hard to keep my promise to her but I made it through it and met jungkook.

Suddenly my mobile made a text sound. I grabbed my phone and looked at it.
It's from jungkook.

From jungkook.

hi! How did it went with your friend? Is she alright? I wonder if you wanna come by our dorm^^ I cooked some things up. I Love you

I just smiled at it. Gosh he can be a bit cheesy. Ending every text with I love you.

Now i am really in trouble. Not sure what to do... 

-The story begins-