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  • Dedicated to Jada Sanders
                                    

                                                                                                TOY SOLIDER- KERI HILSON

                                                                                                  CHAPTER 3

When i woke up this morning i felt defeated i told my self i wouldn't feel sorry for myself, i mean after all i had this coming he was my sister's ex i let the attention go to my head and i hated my self for it."What comes around goes around" i taunted myself, i felt stupid after everything i did to protect myself from heartbreak this achy feeling would not go away and it made me sick to know that i won the battle but he won the war and shattered my heart along the way, i was digusted with my self i hated everything that i had become and was determined to never sink this low again!, i was angry with my self the old ariana was back and it needed to stay that way.It was time to move i looked around the room i was relieved to know that in my new town i could start over.It was time to go my funiture was in our 1 of our 2 Uhauls i  had to get showered after all the lifting i quickly hopped in the shower, the water felt good i was in a trance until the water turned freezing i practically flipped out the tub well not literally i threw on some sweats an a tightly fitted tee an put my hair in a messy bun, packed up the contents of my bathroom and by the time i was done my mom, dad , sister shay, and  brother tony were ready to go i put on my shades so they wouldn't see my red swollen eyes "pathetic" i thought to myself as  ar and proceeded to follow my family with my sister in my passenger i could tell she wasn't happy about having to ride with me i wanted more than anything to be as close with my sister as we were before brian, suddenly a feeling of hate for him rushed over me even though we were both at fault

                                                                         CHAPTER 4

"are you excited for the new house" i asked shay attempting to break the akward silence "you gotta alotta nerve tryin to takj me after what you did!!" she screamed i felt a couple tears run down my face "im sorry i was just trying to make conversation, im so sorry about brian i was stupid i want to go back in time and take it back but i can't" i defended my self i knew she could hear the guilt in my voice i was so broken i needed at least on thing to go right i need something to give me just a little hope that things were going to go back to normal and  could be that confident,outgoing, sexy girl that i once was

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