The Never Ending Game

1- Why?

I - Carmen Andrae - never had a horrible life , well, that is before I turned 16. My parents were happy, I

had a pretty nice brother (3 years older than me) named Camden and I had a boyfriend Aaron. I had met

Aaron in 3rd grade when he moved to my school from Albany, New York. I grew up in New Hampshire in a

small town near a lake and it was a great place to grow up. But then, when I turned 16, my life turned

upside down.

Two months after my 16th birthday, my mom died from diabetes. It was horrible, but I had Aaron, my

dad and my brother. My brother started taking drugs/alcohol after my moms death and he pressured me. I

never took them. I remember one night, when my brother came home, he was drunk. He thought I was his

girlfriend and he wanted sex. I ran to my room (which didn't have a lock because my dad USED TO be

worried about us) and went into the closet. He followed me to my room and I could hear him coming

closer. He slammed open my closet door and through me over his shoulder. I was pounding his back with

my fists but it didn't even faze him. He through me onto the bed and started touching me up and down,

EVERYWHERE. He was so much stronger than me and I couldn't do anything about it. He finally left before

he got too into it and I just went to bed. I couldn't think about it anymore. When he woke up he didn't

remember any of the night before so I didn't tell him about it. I feel like I should have.. But I didn't.

Like I had quickly said earlier, my dad didn't (and still doesn't ) care about us after a while of my mom

being gone. I think he goes to strip clubs and bars. So my 16th year went pretty bad and everything was

finally smoothing out a little bit, when I found out Aaron had been cheating on me. I was crushed and

couldn't take anymore so I immediately broke up with him. That was right before my 17th birthday, and let

me tell you, things could only get worse.

I'm still a junior in High School. I have two good friends, Amber and Chris, and I'm not really on anyone's

bad side. Although, we just got picked for groups in science and I got picked with the one...and only...

AARON. This has to be a new creepy. The teacher told me I can't change partners either.... Why can't I work alone?! I better not get a bad grade on this because of him! We are doing the project on Pteranodon Dinosaurs. Ughh.

I have to go to HIS house on Friday! Why can't he come to my house where there are people unlike his

house where he is an only child and his mom works constantly (his parents are divorced)!? I just need to

get through this one project and hopefully never have to talk to him again. Actually, I don't think we have

talked in about 4 months straight, and that's how I like it.