liaison despair

awakening

I'm sitting beneath the stars.. Lying on the roof... The glittering stars sets my soul on fire..the little flickering lights shining from the heavens reminds me of the times I spent looking at the stars when I was just a child...
Those days where good.. At least the tears fake and the only nights I'll spend gazing the sky will be on hope for a shooting star...now all I can do is pity those falling stars as I see them as a reflection of myself..it must've hurt being stripped from its merriment..The times when I had ones closest to me... Now all I have of them are their numbers...
I can't call, but I can't bring myself to delete them either,, how can I let go of something that gave me so much happiness... Though things ended up in sorrow I'll never forget the happiness those times brought..
Thousand feelings came to my head as I forced myself up and started finding my way down from the roof and into my room...
Life changes people brings memories but now I wish that I never held on to it either way my heart is like a dead flower now.. The petals have wilted... No matter how hard I try there is no good in watering something dead with fake feelings..