AN/ Hey guys!!!!!!!! omg! i have like 1000 reads!!!! i was excited at 300. just wow, thank you guys so much!!!!! so you remember when i said i was going to write a second one?? well here it is!!!!! you guys are really the ones who have made this happen, so thank you for your support. you have no idea how much i love you guys!!! well this is 4 years later so enjoy!!!!!
Tavros lay in his bed unable to fall asleep. Thoughts of his first kiss, touch, real relationship, love, and heartbreak rushing through his head yet again. It had been 4 years why was Gamzee still on his mind. He has passed all of that, even dated other people, but none of them made him feel the way gamzee did. He couldn't fall in love no matter what he tried.
"Dammit Tavros stop thinking about it." Tavros felt completely awful with the way he ended their relationship. He occasionally found himself casually looking for Gamzee. Even hallucinating every once in awhile.
Tavros had moved on in life. He had a good paying job, a nice stable home, and had a name in the world. He was no longer 'wimpy wimp tavros' as people had once called him.
Tavros was now an author who had started small but soon grew. His works were completely based off of his experiences, and most often Gamzee. He had never wanted to hurt him like he had. He didn't even want to leave Gamzee in the first place, but that town was holding him down.
At the end of each book he would place on the very last page a note to him in hopes that one day he'd actually come for him. The note read, "you remain in my heart for eternity. I hope one day i can remember who i was, what we had, and what i'd hoped we'd have. Hoping and wishing won't change the fact that i was wrong. I love you, you're lovely." The purpose of the note was that one day maybe Gamzee would read it and forgive him for everything.
It was difficult to even talk to his fans sometimes because when he saw how excited they were it reminded him of how Gamzee got excited whenever Tavros said anything. It's eating away at him and has been for 4 years. He was slowly slipping down lower and lower. Whenever gamzee was overwhelming his brain he'd just begin a new novel to get it all out. That never worked the correct way because the books would be Gamzee written on paper that was constantly screaming at him. Tavros cried for the first time since the book signing, when he thought he saw his beloved, but his mind was only playing a trick on him.
It was his 5th book signing and he hasn't been sleeping proper.It was way too stressful from his publisher and Gamzee still being on his mind to even get comfortable in his bed. His fans had asked him so many questions, some he didn't even have answer for. A shorter girl who was last in line had ask the final question.
"Who is this note too in the back, its just that its in every book you've ever written and i just wanted to know whats it for?" He starred in shock towards the smaller female. No words could form as he stared past her and at the big window in the front. A man with horns and wild hair stand right outside it taking to some people. He immediately stood up and ran outside. When he looked around there was nobody there, the streets were empty. When he asked slowly back in with a droopy expression he guided back his seat. The was still standing there and this time he actually took the time to look at her. She looked about 14 maybe 15, was about 5'2", with long brown hair, and greenish brown eyes. Her facial expression was one of confusion and shock.
"I apologize. I thought i saw someone I knew. anyway, to answer question... You can't tell anyone ever... The note is to someone very dear to my heart."
"She your ex girlfriend?" The girl interrupted in a whisper.
"Hes more of a boyfriend." The girl was completely silent."i put it there in hopes that he'll see it and maybe forgive me for high school." Tav said looking straight into her eyes before smiling.
Her mother showed up and thanked him taking the girl away from the table. That was the first time he'd simultaneously almost gone crazy and smiled in a while.
He was becoming more and more stressed the more times he thought he saw Gamzee.
The next day was one of opportunity, it was the day of his next book signing. which just so happened to be in that small town he’d grown up in. Tavros was excited to see what had changed, who was still there, and just what was going on. it had been 4 years now and not much had changed. some shops were different, there were more children, some with horns some with none. it was strange he had saw a child run by him. She looked about 8 or 9 and she had horns that looked awfully familiar. The child stopped right in front of him and stared straight up into his eyes. It was only now tavros realized who she had reminded him of, Vriska and Equius. The young girl smiled then ran off leaving tavros smiling like an idiot trying to hold back his laughter. Vriska and Equius?! well i guess he’s the only one who could possibly put up with her abuse.
Tavros continued to walk until he was at the worn out library/bookstore. He didn’t have many memories here since he was always with gamzee at his place. The only thing he really remembered was that gamzee used to live near it. The set up was complete and it was almost opening time. A few people gathered outside, but not many. Today was going to be a long day.
An/ I know it's short, but there is more to come!! again thank you guys so much!!! <3 until next time
~Riri-chan~
