Only My Shadow Know's (Jai Brook And Camila Cabello)

*WARNING MAY TRIGGER* 

Jai POV:

BEEP…………BEEP

I grown and hit my alarm clock weakly, my body filled with pain from last night memories coming back

*FLASHBACK*

“‘Come here you little piece of shit’ he grab me by my shirt I try to escape but it was no use he punch me in the stomach ‘P-p-ple-ease S-stop’ I manage to say but that didn’t stop him he continue to kick and punch me ‘your just a worthless piece of shit, how  can I make such a fat,Ugly, worthless cunt like you no wonder why your mother left! You cant do nothing right’ with that he kick me in the stomach then face. I just cry and waited till he went to his room.”

I sign weakly at that flashback place my thick black glasses on, what he says is true I am worthless, fat, ugly I get told every day at school and home and if you guys didn’t notice I get bullied because I am a ‘nerd’. I get up but feel little arms wraped around my body. I instantly smile I look down and see grace hugging me. She’s my baby 13 year old sister she’s the only one that can put a smile on my face. I begin to shake her gently and say ‘tough teddy… wake up’ she slowly open her eyes and say ‘how you feeling jai’ I smile weakly and say ‘alright’ I get up slowly and feel every bone in my body crack I cry in pain and hold my ribs, grace comes to my side and sit me down she begins to speak ‘jai pick up your shirt’ I shack my head and say ‘N-no G-g-grace Im f-fin-ne’ I hold my rib and make an atemp to get up but grace stops me ‘let me see jai’ knowing I cant stop her I pick up my shirt showing all my cuts and bruises, grace gently apply pressure to my rib but I flinch away she signs and says ‘I think you broke your ribs’ I sign also and get up ‘it could be worst’ I walk toward the bathroom but remembered something and smiled and turned to grace ‘hey grace get ready I got a surprise for you’ she looks at me with excitement in her eyes and quickly get out of my room making me chuckle I go to my connecting bathroom and look at myself in the mirror, slightly bruises left eye, cut up lip, bruises up and down my arms and body then I look at my wrist seeing old and new cuts. As you can see my life is a living hell I get mentally and physical abused from people at school and form the person I used to look up at the most my dad. Just saying dad makes me sick, I cut myself because what they say hurt me and the only way is to take it out on me. I tear up a bit and hop in the cold shower holding a blade making 3 cuts in my arm not to deep but enough to satisfy me, the only person that knows I cut is grace and she tries to help me as much as she can but she doesn’t understand I’m broken. I watch the blood drip form my arm to the white marble tub, I get out the freezing shower and clean the cuts I put on my bracelets which are nirvana, Elvis, and lastly my sister bracelets fifth harmony. She is obsessed with them I got to admit there song are good and there are all beautiful but one stand out to me the most and that Karla Camila Cabello, my sister teases me for having a crush on her but who can blame me she is so cute, yet sexy and her voice is so unique and beautiful. I finally get out of my thoughts by a very excited girl ‘jai were you thinking about Camila again’ grace says I just blush super hard looking like a tomato and quickly say ‘no’ I go in my room picking out clothes she smirks and say ‘yes you were, you know there coming her tonight.. I really wish I can go but they were all sold out and maybe you could of meet her’ I smile ‘oh shut up and yeah I know there coming that’s all you been talking about all week’ she giggles ‘well there my idols and you have a massive crush on her’ she begins to sing Jai and Camila sitting in a tree kissing I throw a pillow at her and said ‘oh shut up and get out so I can change and tell you, your surprise.’ She laughs and continues to sing it and leaves my room I laugh and put on a red shirt with a dark color flannel, brown gold color beanie, some black skinny jeans and my brown fancy shoes and my most favorite gold necklet that i never takes off unless i shower, I grabs my phone and wallet and made sure my sleeves were down because it was cold out and cover a little bit of the bruises and cuts i have. I jog down the stairs seeing grace eating a apple and watching TV. I smile and grab and apple too and sit with her, she look at me and then smiles. We watch TV for a bit until 11:30 am I turn off the TV and look at her and say ‘ready for your surprise’ she jumps up and say ‘YES! YES!YES’ I chuckle and say ‘let’s go’ we go to my old car which is in ok condition we start to drive and to my surprise fifth harmony is playing on the radio I look at grace and she turns up the volume blasting miss moving on. We sing the song and I park my car at the mall. I turn down the volume and grace looks at me confuse I just smile and say ‘you know how fifth harmony is having a concert here’ she nods excitedly ‘well I might have got tickets to see them perform’ the next thing I see is her screaming and hugging me and I grown because my rib is broken she hop off with an worried face but still excited ‘omg jai thank you so much you are the best brother ever’ she said I just smiled and said ‘no problem tough teddy you deserve the best and ready to head to the mall to buy clothes for tonight’ she nodded and got out the car dragging me even though I’m in so much pain seeing her happy is worth it.

Note:this is my first fanfiction and i thought camila and jai would be a good couple so no hate please, sorry if it's not good and for any mistakes. please vote and comment - Desiree