7/22/2018
It's been...2 years .
2 years since I last faced this game .
2 years ago I had an girlfriend . Her name will go unspoken . For those who know me , please stay quiet as I wish to respect her privacy .
Undertale .
One of the first things we bonded over was one of the first things i burned in my heart when she left . When the toxic relationship ended . Toxic for both of us .
I'm a diffrent person now .
With a diffrent lover .
Who makes me happy.
I wont go into how she hurt me and the things she turned me into and things I did to her . But what happened between us hurt us both . For many diffrent reasons .
Recently my boyfriend wanted to make me feel ok again with the things I once loved but burned from existence because of the memory they held . They still held her passion. Her hurt . Her leaving . Her memory .
And when he reloaded this game ...a feeling came over me .
A happy feeling.
A warm feeling of cozy memories I have longed for , for a very long time .
The music
The characters
The passion
The detail
The fucking happiness of playing a game with your loved one came back .
She took the memory with her .
And he made a new one .
Baby . Jace . Thank you . For everything .
As I slowly recover you make me realize I can create a new passion for the things I once loved and forgot . For my new life with you that lays ahead .
As we both voice act . Listen and cherish the memory of recovering . As you take a break from stressful college work and I smile regaining a cherished love for a fan fucking tastic game I can't thank you enough .
What I had with her was strong . And what she had with me was strong. But that's ok .
Because what we have is stronger . And I've learned and grieved from my mistakes . I promise to treat you better than I treated her . I can only hope she learns as well .
As I say this I want to say how amazing Undertale truly is . The fucking detail and music and characters are beautiful.
The passion that went into this game is fanominal .
The memories it makes is even better .
All I can say is do not judge the game by its fandom but by its beauty . This game is a masterpeice . And I cant thank Toby Fox more for the moments this game has given me .
Jace . Thank you . I love you so much . We will go far and we will have a long journey together .
Thanks for letting me rant and cry .
- Jess
