Misunderstanding (Karushuu)

Is it okay if I die?

Gakushuu was sick and tired of this bullshit. Tired of living! Tired of all the weight that rested on his shoulders for as long as he lived. Living the life of having to keep a reptuation, the pressure kept building on him every day! This made him colder and colder to the core. But this was too much! No matter how cold he tried to be, it was still a lot of pressure. Too much to take on alone. He didn't feel like he had any 'real' friends. The people that hung out with him? No more than mere minions. His father? Nothing more than a manipulative piece of shit. He used to take pride in being looked up to. But right now, he felt like it was all a hassle. A huge waste of his time. He never found the time to relax and more importantly, he didn't know HOW to relax!

So this was it. He was going to quit. Just, you know... Drop dead. Gakushuu had made up his mind a long time ago. That today he'd change everything. That today, he can take control of his own life! He would no longer be living in his father's shadow. But most importantly, he'd become a 'no one'. Wiped out of the world itself as a black void consume his very being. Would anyone miss him? Perhaps. But Asano was sure that they'd get over it in no time. How selfish. But then again, he always thought selfishly, did he not?

Gakushuu was now standing on top of a tall building. As he looked down, the strong cool breeze hit his face. He saw a lot of cars come and go. It reminded him that even if he died, the world would continue passing by. Nothing would stop it. Well, whatever. Let's just get this over with. He wouldn't get any younger if he just stood there in awe. Without further ado, he turned around and allowed himself to fall backwards. As he fell, he saw memories of all kinds flashing before him. Memories of his father, his minions, and classmates... Even memories of his rival all flashed before him. So this was what death felt like. So be it. There was no time for regret now. What was done was done. And no one could ever save him at this point. Or so he thought. He snickered a bit and murmured inaudible words that were taken away from the wind. "Take that, world!" But as he fell, he saw an all too familar red head. He chuckled lowly to himself. It was quite ironic. For no one other than his own rival to watch his death. 'Goodbye, Akabane.' He thought before closing his eyes. Karma dropped his strawberry milk, eyes widening in shock as he ran towards Asano opening his arms to catch the strawberry blonde. Was his own rival trying to save him? Heh. But it was already too late, Gakushuu realized as he closed his eyes. Karma recongized this scene somewhere before. It was a scene of his attempt to kill Koro-sensei back in episode 3 but only this time, he was in a different position. He sure didn't expect to be the one saving someone.

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Soon enough, Gakushuu woke up in a hospital, sitting up with bandages wrapped around his bloodied wounds. How the HELL was he still alive?! Oh, right. Akabane. He looked like he was serious about saving Asano back then. He even dropped the source of his life, strawberry milk all to save his rival. What were the odds. But why the hell would Akabane care weather he lived or died? As far as he knew, the two were like water and oil. Regardless, death was his decision and HIS decision only! Why did Karma always have to come foil his plans? But this time, it was different. More... serious. He never showed it but perhaps Karma actually CARED for the control freak? What if Karma actually messed around with Asano so he didn't have to pay attention to the pressure all the time? After all, Asano found it quite fun being around the red head although he dare not admit it. Bullshit. Let me wave those thoughts away before I start choking on my own bullshit.

Beep. Beep. Beep. The nurse finally walked in, distracting Gakushuu from his thoughts. "Asano, you have a visitor. I'm bringing them in." The nurse said without asking for Gakushuu's permission. Ugh. Whoever it was, he sure hoped he didn't have to come face to face with his own father in this fragile state. But then Karma walked in. Ugh. Even worse. Gakushuu started to chuckle lowly, facing his palm.  "Who would've thought I'd be saved by my own rival? Why did you do it, Karma? Because you wanted to watch me suffer more? Do you ENJOY soiling all my plans that much?" Gakushuu asked. This caused Akabane to crush the empty strawberry milk curtain in his hand, his hair covering his eyes. What was up with Karma's reaction? Don't tell me-- Asano's thoughts got caught off as Karma spoke, keeping his composure.

"You're quite smart, Shuu-chan~ Of course that was my intention." Lies! He was lying again! Why couldn't Karma ever be honest with himself? "Besides~ who can I pick on if you're gone?" "Nagisa." Asano replied bluntly. "It won't be as fun as picking on you~" Karma said as he got on top of Asano, icy cold eyes locking with a demon's. Karma wanted Asano to know just how serious he was being. Without using words, of course. Too close. Their faces were just inches apart but of course, Gakushuu didn't complain. Karma was the one that saved his life after all. Plus, he wasn't really hurting the boy. But other than that, deep down, he kind of liked this position. "Why is that?" Asano finally spoke, his expression never changing.

Like hell Karma was going to admit it. "No need to worry about such a trival little thing, Shuu-chan~" the red head waved the question away. "But I've been thinking..." Karma leaned closer to his ear to whisper. "If you want to run away from all the pressure, you could always live with me. Just think about it. You would still be erased from the world. Everyone would think you're dead. But you don't have to be. Also, have I ever told you how attractive you are when you're completely helpless like this~?" He asked, a hand going over Asano's wound as he kissed his jawline. Asano's cheeks were heating up. "Akabane- Just what-" Gakushuu was cut off as his lips met his rival's. The kiss was very passionate as Karma entwined his tongue with Gakushuu's, hands clasped on the strawberry blonde's.

Before Karma could go any further, the nurse walked in. "Sorry but visiting times are over." In all honesty, she didn't know WHAT to think. I mean, here she was, seeing a male almost on the patient's lap, k-kissing each other! "Sorry to disturb you.." She added, blushing heavily. "It's no problem! Well, think about my offer, Shuu-chan." With that said, Karma left, allowing Gakushuu time to think. He had no where else to go. So of course, he decided to take Karma up on his offer. "I'll go." he decided.