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Why was i like this

*******Will's PoV*********
I was drifting through dreams and purple fluids and honestly had no idea what was going on. First there was this guy dressed up in a sun-costume, and he was dancing the hula. Then he got replaced by Nico who was sitting by a campfire. There was a lot of other demigods around but no one I could recognize. He smiled. He had been so much happier for the last couple of months than ever before. The bags under his eyes had disappeared and he actually laughed frequently. I found myself smile along with him. Just looking at him made me happy. The picture changed again and this time we were both standing in his cabin. Or he was sitting at his bed. The place had been redecorated and there were a lot more colors. Usually his bed was the only in use, but then I remembered. Rachel had moved in. Right now I couldn't remember how long ago it had been. At first I hadn't believed it. I knew he had lots of nightmares, but he had told me it had gotten better after he had talked with someone - me - about them. I felt backstabbed. Of course It was alright for him to have other friends, it was what i had always told him to. But I had felt something else. Apparently it was a one-way feeling.
I doubled up as if I had been hit in the stomach. I remembered the rush I always felt looking at him. How I felt like everything was gonna be okay, even after a long day of work at the infirmary I would never be too tired to stare at him. Okay that sounded creepy. I focused on his face again. He still had that wonderful smile of his showing. Then I realized why. At the other occupied bed sat a girl with frizzy red hair. She was smiling just like him, and my stomach started to hurt even worse. The way he looked at her was like Percy looking at Annabeth. He stood up, and walked from his bed to hers and sat down beside her, a hand on her thigh. She laughed up at him before leaning in for a kiss. For a brief moment I hoped he would walk away but of course he didn't. My whole body shivered, and I felt my heart being ripped apart. Of course I'd known he would get a girlfriend someday, but I'd hoped that I had gotten over my crush on him before that.

It was awful to look at. Her tongue in his mouth, his hands on her body. I felt sick. Why was I like this. Couldn't I just be happy that my friend was finally feeling good again. With everything he had been through it was selfish of me to be jealous. He shouldn't loose a friend because of this. It wouldn't be fair. I took a deep breath and promised myself to never let anyone know of my feelings, least of all Nico. How could he be friends with me knowing that I wanted more.

"I don't want to see this!" My voice was shaking but I didn't care. The scene faded away and everything was black. My dreams usually wasn't like this. I dreamt and then woke up. It wasn't just plain nothing. Faraway I could hear voices, but I had no idea what they were saying, and no matter how hard it tied to wake up I couldn't.

This sucked.