It's been a month since the incident. I'm still scared. I'm going to therapy. Dani is out of rehab. She was at school with me. She gotten tattoos saying 'Stay' on her left wrist. 'Strong' on her right wrist. "I can't believe you gotten raped." She says. "I'm so scared to have sex with Beck he been so awesome waiting until I'm ready." I say. Beck and I been dating for 3 months now. Our relationship is stronger then ever. "So do you know if Danny gotten you pregnant?" She asks. "Idk but I'm having a test done at the doctors today." I say. "Beck be there?" She asks. "Yeah, I told him I want him there. If I'm pregnant we both agreed to abort it and have our own child." I say. "Why don't ya keep it and Beck and you could raise the child and tell them when they are older that you were raped and Beck is their father figure." She says. "I don't know if I'm even pregnant!" I say, loudly. "Okay, jeez sorry." She says. "Anyway how are things going with you?" I asked her changing the subject. "Well, Cat is well, Bi too we are together now." Dani says. "I hope you can handle her." I say. "She keeps me not using." She says, giving me a hug. I see Beck. I run to him and jump in his arms and I kissed him a hundred times. "Your back! From Canada I missed my man." I say, he kissed back. "I missed you too baby next time I'll take you with me." He says. It was after school we headed to my appointment with my mom and Dad and sister and cousins and beck. The doctor asked me to pee in a cup. "Tori, your pregnant by rape." He says. "It's up to you Tori." Beck says. "I want to keep it as a reminder of the rape. I hope your okay with it." I say, taking Dani advise. "Are we going to tell him?" Beck says. "No, I don't want to I want you to pretend it's yours." I say. "Okay. I'm fine with that baby." He says, hugging me and kissed my cheek. "We support you and I'll make sure Daniel doesn't come near you and his child he doesn't get to know." My dad says. "When the child is old enough it will make his or her decision if they want to me him or not." I say. "I think we should let him know Tor." Dani says. "Dani, do you think I should." I say. "You are doing what my opinion was." She says. "Dani, I want to keep the child. I can't kill a baby." I say. "My opinion is.... you should tell him so he knows what he is missing out on and tell him Beck is going to be it's father until they are old enough to make that decision. Also I think you should press charges so he can go to jail for a long time." She says. "Would you tell him. Every time I think of him. I freeze up and freak out and get scared." I say. "Sure, can I say it rudely?" She asks. "Anyway you want." I say, she hugs me. My dad took her to tell him. Beck looks me in the eye. "You need Dani and me now, to keep you safe." He says. I nodded yes. He kissed me we went to my house. We were in my room. "Your goregous." He says. Coming up wrapping his around my belly. "Pretty soon I'll be having his child." I say. "I love you and this baby even though he or she is not my blood. I love it already." He says. I smiled I turn around and kissed his lips.
