Your Was :((

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AN: Dont expect too much.  And Im really really sorry for the typos and all that. :))

"Yeah. i need some space and let's break up" he said coldly.

Wow. Just wow.

 "W-what? No. Why? We are fine last night" litong sagot ko.

Wala namang akong natatandaan na may mali akong nagawa or something na mag cacause ng sudden 'break-up' nya.  As far a i know, we are okay. Perfectly okay. We cuddled and talk about our future and all that stuffs. 

Fuck.

"What's the point of knowing the fucking reason? It wouldn't change anything..." I am really at my fuckest moment right now and I could not absorb the things he is saying.

"Hell no. I need to know, baby. Please"

"Nasasakal na ako. Putangina. Lahat na lang ikaw ang nasusunod. And you know I miss fucking and you could not  even have sex with me!"  

Putangina. Fuck that reason.

"And that's the reason why? Huh?" I asked him desperately. Hindi niya iyon sinagot.

Siguro I need to set him free. Baka nga nasasakal ko na sya. Pero yung rason na he misses fucking ...  I cant take it. 

I unconsciously slapped him and I saw how his jaw clenched hardly.

"Sige, let's break up! Tanginamo. Fuck all the girls you wanted to fuck. Have sex with them" Sigaw ko bago nag lakad paalis.

As the days passed, I realized that being in a relationship and letting someone into your life takes courage and strength. Everyone has a different definition and expression for love.  Maybe mine is too much for him. And I realized that if we both have different definitions and ways of expression for love,  we both can feel unfulfilled because there's always something lost in translation between the two of us.

Realizing the truth can often times hurt more than you would ever expect.

 Yes, I gave way too much of myself to him and our relationship. It is sad, but more and more each day, I know this separation is the right thing.  Somehow this is one of the most difficult truths to come to, and yet one of the most important.

So, the best thing that I can do is to let the truths come to me, in small doses. Little by little. These realizations hurt, yes, but they also move me forward.