Only You

Chapter Two: Try to Sleep

WeiZhou was busying around the house like a concerned mother. "Jingyu, where is he going to sleep?" He came back into view, hands on hips, looking at Jingyu with an eyebrow raised.

"I was thinking he could sleep in our room, just for tonight. And tomorrow we can buy some stuff and make the guest room more kid-like." Jingyu said, bouncing the sleeping boy on his arm.

"And what about Jackson?"

Jingyu shrugged, turning to Jackson with a smile. "The guest room or the couch is fine." Jackson grinned back at Jingyu.

WeiZhou still had his concerns, but let them go. That's what got them fighting most of the time.

"Here, let me take Cai from you, and you can go clean up." He smiled softly, taking Cai from Jingyu's arms. Jingyu smiles, kissing Timmy on his forehead and patting Cai on his head.

Jackson sighed. Timmy turned to look at him, concerned eyes peering into the singer.

"What's up?" Timmy asked, scooting closer even with the snoring child on his hip. He stroked Cai's think black hair with love.

"I just... I look at you and Jingyu and see this life that you guys have made... even if everything isn't all worked out and you both still have short circuits sometimes. You guys have so much in the right place, and I keep thinking about how badly I want that with someone."

WeiZhou thought about his words for a moment, before speaking. "Who do you want this type of thing with?"

Jackson hesitated. "BamBam. I can't even look at him anymore without thinking about it. Last night, I kissed him, and he wouldn't talk to me all day." He sighed. "I really like him. I don't want to mess anything up."

WeiZhou thought about it. He had met BamBam before, and now that he knew how Jackson felt, a lot of things made sense. Little things, like how Jackson hugged him, or laughed when he told a joke. He looked down at Cai, giving him a little bounce and rubbed his back. He had to admit, the kid was cute.

"I think you should tell him how you feel. More than just physically." He said, looking back up at Jackson. "Worst case scenario he doesn't feel the same, and it's awkward for a few weeks." WeiZhou shrugs. "We can talk about this more tomorrow, if you want. I'm really tired, and so is he." He motioned down to Cai and Jackson nodded.

"Goodnight, Timmy."

"Goodnight, Jackson."

Timmy walked slowly to his and Johnny's shared room, laying Cai down on their bed and tucking him in. Jingyu emerged from the bathroom a few seconds later with a small smile.

"Hey."

"Hey."

WeiZhou didn't know why, but when his lover said that he broke out into tears. Maybe it was because he had now realized how much their lives had changed. They couldn't put this little boy in an orphanage, but they weren't even married. Maybe it was because he was really stressed about what had happened in the night. But no matter what it was, he was in Jingyu's strong arms in two seconds, wrapped in his strong grasp, the familiar scent wrapping him in comfort. He hugged back fiercely, clinging to Jingyu and crying quietly into his shoulder. Jingyu rubbed his back, trying to calm him down.

After a few minutes WeiZhou stopped crying. He moved his hands up to hold Jingyu's face, then leaned forward and kissed him softly. There was no itching passion, no sexual sense. Only love.

"Huang Jingyu, I love you. I've always loved you."

Jingyu nodded, then opened his eyes, brushing away WeiZhou's tears with his thumbs. "I love you too, Timmy."