Surviving

Cancer + Love = Dilemma

Let's get started with the love story shall we. Ever since I was 5 years old my parents have always wanted me to marry a family friend and his name is David St.Clark. We started dating before I found out I had cancer. I was loyal and faithful I liked Dav but I never really understood my feelings for him. It turns out Dave is just like any other guy A CHEATER! It hurt when I found out he cheated on me but I got over, now I just have anger for him. Anyway that's not how this love story begins I always had a crush on Dr.Florez he is a doctor here he visits me three times a week. Every time he comes he is always so nice and friendly. I just wish that one day he will look at me more than just cancer girl. But that is not is not the only guy that is in this  love story. His name is Jackson King we met in the hospital. Jack is something else he never really gives up. One thing I know for sure is that I am going to fall in love with Jack. But now I have a dilemma if I fall in love with Jack what about my feelings for Dr.Florez. No one told me how hard it  is to handle FEELINGS! Especially this complicated. Jack is starting to grow on me he snuck me out of the hospital. It's so nice being able to feel like I'm a normal person. That same weekend he  and took me to go see Mr. and Mrs. King for a family dinner. Everyone was so nice except for Mrs. King she told me we need to have a "girl talk". Of course I said why not?She pulled me into another room. She told me I know you and my son are "friends" but do you expect him to take care of you cause listen here honey we are his family and your just some girl that is going to break his heart. My son shouldn't have to take responsibility for someone like you. So I suggest you get out of his life while you can. I should have expected his mom to act this way I have cancer what should I have expected? I started to ignore Jackson all together. I felt really bad but now I have a chance to get closer to Dr. Florez. Every time that Dr.Florez would come I would complement him but every time I  tried I felt like some little girl with cancer. It sucks to feel this way.