Hold On - Solangelo Angst

Hold On

Loving and fighting, Accusing, uniting

I can't imagine a world with you gone

"Nico, this is stupid! I did this to protect you!" Will was on the verge of tearing his hair out. Why couldn't Nico see that he had gone through his things to keep him safe?

"Protect me?" Nico's voice was deadly quiet "I can keep myself safe, thank you very much."

"But you can't protect yourself from things you can't fight! And what I saw, It scared the crap out of me! It's like breaking down a door to stop someone who was about to - to hurt you! It may cost you a couple thousand dollars to fix the door, but in the end it will have been worth it!" Will reached over and tried to get Nico to look at him.

Nico glared at Will and pushed his hands away "Are you saying I'm weak?"

"Maybe you are!" Will finally snapped "You know what? I'm done fighting for you and dealing with your shit. I'm sick of it. Its just another fucking pain in my ass. Maybe you're dad was right too. Maybe we weren't meant to be together." As soon as the words were out of his mouth, Will regretted it. But the damage was already done.

The joy and the chaos, the demons we're made of

I'd be so lost if you left me alone

Nico sprinted out of the room and into the hallway, followed by the distinct sounds of a door slamming and the click of a lock.

"Nico...?"

You locked yourself in the bathroom

Lying on the floor when I break through

Will knocked on the bathroom door. Nico had been in there for almost an hour now. "Nico? Please come out. I'm sorry. I love you."

Will's pleas were met with silence

"Nico? Are you okay? Please talk to me... You're worrying me... Nico? Nico!" Will pounded on the door.

More silence followed. And then, a crash, and the distinctive sound of glass breaking.

Will started to panic. Grabbing the heaviest object he could find, Will broke down the bathroom door. The sight he was met with was enough to make his heart stop. 

Nico was lying on the floor, in a lake of blood, next to an empty pill bottle and various shards of glass from the broken mirror. More flowers of red bloomed from his arms and legs.

I pull you in to feel your heartbeat

Can you hear me screaming "please don't leave me"

Will ran over, ignoring the sticky blood on the floor, and tried to staunch the bleeding. Pulling Nico's limp body into a hug, he checked his pulse. For a terrible moment, there was nothing. Then, there! a thin, thready, pulse, beating beneath Will's fingers.

Pressing a quick kiss to Nico's temple, Will whispered "I love you. Don't you dare leave me"

Hold on, I still want you