Why don't we X vampire

Part 1/ intro :)

Hello there. I know I know, this is a bit strange. But let me introduce myself. Ignoring all the bad things that happened in my life I can confirm that My life has been, overall, quite amazing.
Ive met so so many different people who have been amazing friends, also some who weren't but hey we can't all be as great as I am.
The ones who were nice have helped me get through a lot of stuff and kept pushing me when hard times came across. They've always been there for me, as all friends should.
That's why I love them with all my, very dead may I add, heart.

My family is a different story. I lost most of them over the past few years.
Mostly of sickness, murder or just because of a natural death. The possibility of them dying by something worse, or someone, is also their considering my life's a bit fucked up.

My age... that's a long story. But long story short, I'm 17 years old.
Well kinda.
I have actually been 17 years old for the past 157 years.
I'll try to explain how I'm 157 years old, and hows that even possible, some time later. When I'm feeling like explaining because right now it's really not a good time to. You see... I'm in a bit of a rush.

Sometimes life can be really difficult. Not because of some hard math test or some shit like that. No, this is serious, because A LOT of people want me dead.
Because of who, or lets say, what I am. Theirs also a slight chance that it is because of the things I've done.
I hate to say it but I have killed a lot of people... I didn't want to but I had too. If I didn't kill those 'people' back then I would've be a dead men by now.

I mean it wasn't my fault...

I switched my humanity switch off.
(Thats when I turn a switch off in my head and that makes me feel nothing, no love, no pain,... just so you know)
In the beginning I thought that it would be amazing! I mean you have no feeling. You can't get hurt by anything that's comes your way. No you just say "fuck it" and move on. C'mon that just sound truly amazing.

But after I put my humanity back on all the things I did and all the feelings I've been pushing away came rushing back into my life 100 times harder then they would of have the first time.

There's only a few people, the one's you truly love, who can help you put your switch back on.
The person who helped me was Sam.
He was my boyfriend. Not for much longer tho, we broke up.
Long story... not interesting enough to spend our precious time on so we move away from that.

I made a lot of mistakes in my life. I learned a lot from them and I've tried to accept them.

I don't tell my secret to anyone. Not a single soul. Because I'm scared that the ones who do find out will be scared of what I am. I don't want to lose any more of my friend.
But with every lie comes an awful feeling. For me that awful feeling is the feeling of 'being an awful friend' because can you really be friends with someone when you have to constantly lie about everything you do? Exactly, no.

Next to the friends I have I also have lots of enemies. Most of them with the same secret as me. I also know a few people with different secret than mine but they're all as unbelievable as mine. Let's just say my world is a bit crazy.

You wanna know my secret, right?
Okay ill tell you. But only to you so keep it to yourself or I'll come for you. Like seriously, be careful.
My secret is that I am a vampire.
Don't worry it's not as scary as it might sound. I don't drink human blood so you're safe. I'm mean for now at least, I am trying my best okay its really hard and tempting.
For now it's working tho. I mean im still alive by drinking the blood of animals and I'm as strong as ever to be fair.

I might be a vampire but I'm still trying to be a normal teenager. I just want be like everyone else. Have a normal life, you know?
I mean I can fall in love too!
On the other side I also have lots of good friends like this boy I've met.
He has a lot of things in common with my ex. Not that that matters. No, nope not at all. That's also definitely not the reason I talked to him in the first place. The only difference between the boy and
my ex, Sam, is that my ex is a vampire too.
This boy isn't. This boy is just... a boy. He's normal. The boy's name is Zach. Not that that matters but I felt like telling you.

Zach doesn't know my secret and that'll probably stay like that for a while. I can't have him be scared of me. I can't handle the thought of him not liking me anymore.
The fun thing about Zach is that he is such a goofball. He's funny and he just doesn't care.
He's also 17 years old, like me... well kinda. At the moment he's in school doing, you know, school stuff.
He also has these 4 friends and he always sings with him. I think they are a band but I don't know for sure. Well we will see.
Ive been to high school so many times. But this time will definitely change my life.

Well that's me. Let's move on quick. There's no time left to spend.