I don't know what's wrong with me.
I need help.
I've tried to reach out to my parents.
Yet, nothing
Let me explain more...
It all goes back to when i was a little
I had always been super skinny.
Then as i grew i was super over weight.
It would switch alot.
I would eat 3 meals a day.
I always was outside.
I was open about everything.
That all changed when i moved.
I gained weight and held it.
I stopped going outside as much.
I ate once or twice a day.
Then middle school came around and so did more and more people to bully me.
Social anxiety was always a thing with me.
But adding on depression and trust problems,
Didn't help any.
I was slowly becoming something i promised myself i wouldn't become
Present Day
I'm losing weight slowly which is what i want.
Im over weight.
I get super cold at times.
Im never hungry.
Ill try to eat but it just comes right up.
I faint alot.
If i get sleep its not enough.
Im always tired.
The only time im not is when im with the person i love and care about the most.
Depression seems like an endless pit of everything you most fear and hate and its pulling you down and down and there's no stoping point.
Today i got super cold my stomach started feeling like it was getting stabbed over and over.
Then i felt sick and fainted. I woke up 8 hours later still tired.
Full.
Pained.
Panicked.
And empty
i don't know what's wrong with me.
-kristyn 11:14 EDT
