my first love

though times

it was actually my first kiss and i was at every kiss we shared i was so unrelaxed, i was so nervous and he always told me to relax, to make sure, i don't feel uncomfortable.
yeah he came to my home after a bike ride and i became more relaxed at every kiss and this day would change my life.. bc it was the first time he touched me on erotic places, not that i'm getting an orgasm but just checking what i like and he was so caring asking all the time
if it's okay and stuff and omg after 8 months i still appreciate that so much😭

okay time is coming, time is going. it was 26th march and i went with him to his grandparents for a week, and it was the best week of my life.. cuddling.. kissing.. coming to more stuff... aaaaand getting my first hickey, boop. the week was very beautiful bc we watched movies. we cried, we laughed when we were annoying each other, mostly was he the one getting my teasing but well. it was the first time we saw more from each other, not much but more.

yes okay school continued and the teachers proved me they are dumb bc the meant the relationship was neither good for me nor for him. and i mean wtf is there business of my relationship?!

whatever it came the holidays, he has been gone for a week and holy shit it was the worst week in the whole 9 weeks! i missed him so much!!! aaand theeen we drove to the styria together and had a flat for us! it happened kinda really much.. almost did it but guess what, i shuddered every second and was so nervous.. we came so far and then i started crying bc i took all guilt on me!.. on the last day, it was the best week of my life. i slept wirh just panties and i woke up, sat on the bed, looked in the sun, very sleepy, and he kissed my shoulder, to my neck, behind my ear... and i kept looking at the sun, he held my other arm, stroking it and he whispered in my ear: good morning, and holy i had tears in my eyes bc that's what i wanted everyday!!! it was so beautiful😭