My feelings

The Rant

I have feelings too,But people forget that,A lot of my friends do.They mess around with my feelings,They say stuff about me BEHIND MY back,And I just hate them and I mean HATE But,I don't want to loose them,My friends bully this one girl...But I want t9 be friends with this one girl....But I will loose so many other friends if I do so,And I don't want that to happen,ain't hurts me.I feel like I'm locked up into a ball in this deep.....Dark room.With all my fears,Secrets and More.I can breathe anymore,And I have to much weight on my shoulders,That it's going up and down my body more so everywhere.

My name is Molly Curtin,And I'm 16 Years old.I have this thing Anxiety and Depression.Its get the worst of me.My family doesn't care about me.Well sometimes.My friends just love ME for who I am...Well some of them.i tried to take Therapy,But it still hurts...Like I am betrayed by everyone

My story begins In Life,I had these Incredible friends,Amy,Ali,Toni,Spence.
I trusted them with everything I had,All my secrets and feelings.Until one of them spilled the beans and told a lot of people that I had a crush on the schools freak,Witch wasn't true.It felt like I got betrayed by a whole load of strangers I didn't know.It felt like I was in this Game.Like...I cant explain it anymore....It's a Nightmare.Like I'm trapped in a HellHole.Trust me I've been their.All I want to do is rant to someone.But They would obviously tell people around them about me.Like..I was nobody...Like I am nobody....Like I didn't even existed.

A lot of people called me a mistake,Or I was probably adopted because I was the "Ugliest"In my family.It hurtled,It hurts so bad..It felt like I got stabbed and shotted by a knife and a gun so many times...I felt pain everywhere...I mean everywhere.I tried to not be gloomy and boring..But people just said to kill my self,I must die.

But...I thought of why I was even in this world..My parents wanted a child.Just not me...I'm 16 I'm no child anymore..my parents even disowned me....I felt all the horrors like there was nothing left anymore.."Their was a girl,Crying in needing for her daddy's arms to hug her...To tell her she wasn't worthless all along..."I was tell myself.Ive tried moving,And moving schools...Yet it's still the same

I tried to attempt suicide...To end all this pain away once and for all....Until my mother came into my room and started throwing a lot of things at me..I had so many bruises,she jutted me with belts..Tried to throw a knife at me...But she realized she would be a murder...She told me I was a mistake..I was worthless.but I felt like.....They weren't my real family...Like I was adopted.....But I couldn't Bear to stand to this...I tried t come down from crying my days out...But I couldn't stop thinking..."Maybe this is it..Maybe they are right..."They called me scumbag...Slut....And many more things that not only hurts me...My hurt my feelings....Nobody excepted me for who I am or was....I tried to eat nothing to be skinnier..so much people told me to go have a shower..To be skinner to brush my hair...I did that so many times but nobody believes me..

It was hard to not cry in front of everyone..I've told the school about being bullied...But they just agreed that the rest of them were right...They were calling me racist...And were body shaming me..I felt like...I was in a hell of a nightmare in a loop hole...Trying to reach out for help...Like....people can hear me scream...But Dosent care and just moves on....It hurts me...I always tell people what would happen if it had happen to them...They always reply they were the queen or king and won't even care ONE bit