My feelings

The letter T

I always hated the letter T since my mother brought the word of,When I was only 12 years old,I had A very Bad anxiety attack.My depression and anxiety kept getting worse and worse,When I turned 12,my mother told me I should start seeing a THERAPIST.i thought she was crazy,And she thought I was crazy.I don't know how I felt.It scared me.

Have you ever got a feeling like..Your just being used?I always Thought I was s popular because everyone in school knew me,Because I'm the weird lonely Emo kid.So my mind messed up.i always felt like everyone's been using me as an excuse.but how am I suppose to know what's going on in their deep minds of theirs?!Im not some overly physic magical fairy godmother or some thing.My "friends"would call me names like I was okay with it.I tried ranting my feelings at this one friend of mine.But it caused me a lot of trouble I ranted os much about her she got mad and sad she told her mother.So now...I think writing is a good thing for me.Like I can write anything I want.Even in my own language.I can just make one up.Or speak....I'm not so sure.

Now back to The letter T.why I hate it?Because...Everyone made fun of me when I went last time.So I don't know if they are still acting like babies,or they can mange it now.How I like to talk is...Go to a very relaxing lonely place and bring a doll or a teddy to talk to...Or just talk to the bugs to see what's going in nature life.Or talk to the tree.The letter T is not my favorite anymore.And never will be.Am I crazy?!Or am I just....Having no words to explain?

(New part of Pinky Promise will come out soon!Please hold your horses)