The Girl Behind The Camera

~5~

Trigger warning: mentions of anorexia
(Honestly idk if it's a trigger warning :p)

I woke up this morning the same way as usual. With my dog barking at my alarm clock. But this morning I felt... happier. I don't know why, I just was smiling ear-to-ear. Then I remembered. I kissed Jake Mooney. The one guy everyone would kill to kiss. And he kissed me! I fling my legs over my bed and walk over to my closet. I grab a black thick stringed tank top, a pair of blue ripped jean shorts, and my gray zip up hoodie, then put it all on.

"Spot! You hungry?" I say looking at my dog.
He barks in agreement, so I put some food and water into his bowls

I see my phone buzz

Jake: good morning!

Rose: your seeing me in what? A half and hour.

Jake: I still want to say good morning

Rose: Well then good morning to you too.

Jake: now that's the Rose I know and love.

During this time I was sitting on my bed. When I read that I fell backwards and grab a pillow, I happily scream into it kicking me feet, I feel my face burning, smiling ear to ear.

Jake: heading onto the bus, see you at school.

Rose: see you there!

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I get to school and walk in, and I see Jake waiting by my locker. I roll my eyes and smirk, my hood still up on my head. I walk over there

"Theres my angel!" Jake says I as I walk over, he says it in a pretty loud voice so that the people near can hear us and look at us.
"JaKe!" I say quietly, opening up my locker "you know I wanted to keep... us.... a secret!"
"Fine... under one condition." He says, smirking at me
"What? It looks evil..." I say, grabbing some of my books
"You can wear your hood but everyone will know about us. Or, you don't wear a hood and we are a secret." He says, secretly holding my hand
"Jake..." I say looking up at him
"Choose, or I will make you do both..." he whispers teasingly at me, even though I think he was telling the truth
"Fine...." I sigh, pulling down my hood "but no one knows! Ya got that Mr?" I say quietly pointing at him, but already seeing heads turn at me
"Got it!" He says and let's go of my hand as he hears the bell "See you later!"
I feel my face turn bright red and look down, I pull up my hood, already feeling self conscious

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I get to the lunch room and see Jake waiting at a table for me, once he sees me he rolls his eyes and walks over to me
"I said no hood" Jake says, pulling my hood down
"Jake I just can handle it..." I say looking down, putting my hood back up
"Then I'm telling everyone." Jake says, putting his hand on my chin and lightly pushing my head up, forcing me to look at him
"Jake please..." I say, my eyes watering up, but he clearly couldn't see that
"Take of your hoodie." Jake says, pulling my hood down.
I unzip my hoodie and take it off, he hands me his jacket, it's the type of jackets all jocks have. yea, that. I put it on and look at it, was a little to big for me... but I liked it.
"Wear that. And I'm keeping your hoodie till the end of the day." He says, smirking at me.
I stick out my tongue at him and start walking out of the cafeteria
"Where are you going?" Jake says running after  me
"The library"
"There's no food aloud in there though..."
"I know"
"Rose... what are you doing? Aren't you hungry"
"Yea I am. But I'm not going to eat"
"Why?!"
"Oh, of course you guys don't know because non of you guys give a s*** about me!"
"Rose! What are you talking about?"
"I'm anorexic! Ok?!"
"Rose! Why?!"
"Because I don't love myself! Why do you think I wear my hood everyday, why do you think I didn't talk to anyone?!"
"Rose..."
"It's because I didn't want an a**hole breaking me heart!!!"

I wasent the shy school Rose anymore.
I was actual me.

Everything after that was a blur, I remember Jake talking to me and me getting mad, I remember taking my jacket back and giving his back, tears streaming down my face. I ran to the nurses office and said I didn't feel good and she let me go home, I don't know how... I just came home and cried.

I just ruined the only friendship I had.

A/N:

Sorry for not updating in awhile, life has been crazy

I don't feel like cussing in my book so I just put stars over the words (yes, I call these: * stars) so that my fellow older friends and humans reading my book know what word it is. Ok. Idk when imma post the next chapter... ok imma go eat popcorn with a spoon now... bye.