Not His Type Of Woman

20: Goodbyes

AN: This may be quite a heavy chapter for some so read with caution, also this will be in third person. Please do read the note at the bottom:) It's in bold!

Zoya sat on the large windowsill, her legs bent, knees touching her chest, it felt like the tears would never stop, the pain in her chest was making it hard to breathe. She couldn't move, so sucked in by the way the rain poured, the lightening in the sky the only light she could see on this gloomy day, her eyes fluttered shut and she let out a sob, her nails digging into her hands as she did so.

Her phone buzzed by her side, Adi's name lighting up her screen, though he had cast a dark shadow over her life. She couldn't help but laugh at her own misfortune, but the loneliness was creeping in, never did she expect her life to fall so quickly, in less than a day it felt like the whole world had turned against her

"Aapi" Noor pushed open the door "Its been two days, you haven't ate and I"

"I just want to be alone, please" her voice raspy from the crying "Please just leave me alone Noor"

Noor sighed dejectedly and shut the door behind her

Zoya turned her head to look out of the window only to see Adi stood there, dark bags underneath his eyes, she peered up at the open window and went to close it

"Zoya wait" he pushed his fingers in the gap so she couldnt close it which made her sit back down and turn her head. "I know I am the last person you want to see or hear from right now, I messed up, I know that Zoya, I dont want to just give up on this, on us"

"There is no more us" she bit back, anger laced in her voice

He shut his eyes tightly, how he wished she would laugh and be nervous again, her witty remarks had been his faviourate part of the day, never did he think he would be the reason to break her. He had torn her down in ways that had left her bleeding, and for that he would never forgive himself. "I dont deserve your forgiveness, therefore I will not ask for it, I just came here to see you, its killing me not having you so close, I had something amazing and its my fault I lost it"

Zoya laughed sadly "Dont even try feeling sorry for yourself, you are the worst kind of man, one argument and suddenly you are having sex with Aliyana, the woman you said abused you, I stuck by you, I stood by your side with Aliyana, comforted you, picked you over my family and left my job to work with you, I know you never asked me to do it, but I did and I hate myself for it, but you hurt me in the worse way, because deep down I knew you would hurt me, but you kept reassuring me, damn you even made me feel bad for shouting at your mother, but in truth, it was you that used me, as soon as Aliyana returned you threw me to the side" her breaths shaky as she looked into his eyes "I loved you, I loved you and you broke my heart, I dont know what to do anymore, I dont know how to get back up from this, so dont you dare come to my home and start pitying yourself Mr Hooda"

Adi placed one hand on the window, "You really want me to leave huh"

Zoya nodded

Adi blew his cheeks out, a tear trickled down his cheek "Goodbye you beautiful woman, I truly am sorry for all I have done to you, I just hope you find the happiness you so truly deserve, dont ever change, you're good enough as you are" he whispered

Zoya turned fast to face him "But I wasn't good enough for you, right"

Adi shook his head "No Zoya, it was me that wasn't good enough for you" he leant closer, the alcohol in his pocket bashing against the glass

Zoya looked down at it, her eyes widening slightly "Why do you have that"

He stepped back "No reason Zoya, no reason at all" he looked at her, taking her in, one last time, the last time he would ever see her face again, or hear her voice, he hated himself for losing a gem as rare as her. "Im really going to miss you Zoya" he whispered before turning around to walk away