My name is Kendall Star some of you may not believe that star is my last name but it is. On my birth certificate and everything
I just turned 17 in August it's now the beginning of December I'm currently sitting in my room wrapped up in two blankets in order to keep warm
Since my mom couldn't pay the bill this month you could say I'm living my best life by the way I clean myself up
I always go to school looking my best with a smile on my face even if my mom's boyfriend beats me the night before
It's been this way since I was 10 if he comes over and the house isn't clean he beats me for it then pays my mom for sex after his nuts he leaves
It used to be an every other day thing now it's an everyday thing back in the 6th grade when I was just turnt 12 and got my period
He tried to force himself on me I'd try to tell my mom but she never believes me it happen once in front of her and she told me that it was my fault
And I believed her she'd tell me that I was ugly and never get a real boyfriend and that I scared my father away when I was a baby
Sometimes at night I'd sit in my room in the dark and cry but crying doesn't solve anything
I've been depressed for as long as I can remember but I always tend to cover it up. I got jumped my freshmen year because the girls were jealous of my long curly hair and my Caramel toned skin
My mother used to look just like me until she met Dave her boyfriend we were doing okay not good but we wasn't struggling
My mom had a good paying job then once Dave came in the picture the job disappeared her once beautiful turned paled almost like she wasn't living
Her long beautiful was not cut short into a bob and she wear loads of makeup to hid the bags under her eyes
I was currently sitting on the sofa in the living twirling the heart locket my grandfather had gave to me before he passed
I remember every Sunday me him and my nan used to make his famous coconut pies but it all stopped when my nana died from a severe heart attack
A year later my papa died from depression over my Nana's death
I was knocked out of my thoughts by a vase breaking over my head causing blood to run down the sides of my face
"Bitch I know you fucking hear me" she yelled at me
I turned around and stared at her not once letting a word come from my mouth
"Clean this fucking house up before Dave com-" my mom was cut off by the door being slammed shut
"Before I what" the devil himself asked
"Nothing baby how was your day" my mom asked rubbing up and down on his manhood
"Why isn't this house cleaned" he asked raising an eyebrow at me
" I-i" before I could even finish my sentence he was standing face to face with me staring at me then he spoke
"Do I need to teach you a lesson"
"N-no" I replied while swallowing the hard lump that formed in my throat
"Good now wash these walls" he said grinning
" but I do-" he must've read the fuck out of my mind because this nigga took the words straight out of my mouth
"Bitch I know this apartment old you don't have to state the obvious"
When I was washing the walls I heard muffled screams and moans I tried to shake the image out of my head but the throw up almost surfaced when I heard Dave say
"Ughh fuck if only you'd let me have a night with Honey"
He said referring me by the nickname my mom gave me when I was younger which was before she met Dave
"Mhmmm no I'm all you need"
"Fuck this.... mmmmughhh"
"Did you just nut in m-"
I continued to wash the walls that was until Dave came out putting his shirts on and adjusting is mid area of his sweats
I'm not going to lie Dave is a good looking man but he's sick like when he first met my mom he fucked her right in front of me and when I first her boobs he tried to feel on me
But he never once tried to stick anything in me he may have touched me and rubbed up against me but he never stuck anything in me
Because my mom would make him stop and that's the only thing Good she's ever done for me
