Forbidden Love

Chapter 9

"Certainly not the fucking pureblood."

He scoffed at the thought. He loved the exotic and forbidden taste that Kaname's lifeblood offered, but he wasn't going to let himself sink that low again. "Never again...."

The problem was, the level D vampire didn't think he'd be able to resist. He could only go so long before he went insane and fell to E. Just him thinking that made his body tense up, and doing so told the other occupant of the room, Yuki, that he was awake.

"Zero, how are you feeling?"

He grunted and squeezed his eyes shut when she pulled the cloth from his eyes. He could feel stitches on his forehead pulling when he closed his eyes too tight.

"What happened?" He reached up and gingerly touched the wound.

Yuki pulled his hand away. "You were convulsing and fell out of bed. You hit your head on the table."

"Shit! This is worse than I thought."

"Zero? When was the last time you--"

"Don't offer because I won't take anymore from you!"

She looked hurt. "I just want to help you."

"I know. It would be more helpful if you didn't offer."

"Why? Last time you were desperate! And you didn't hurt me, I swear!"

"But this time I would kill you." He said, so calm that Yuki's blood froze.

She sat in stunned silence, looking down at the floor.

"You could ask Ka--"

"I WON'T ASK HIM!!!!"

She jumped at his explosion and landed on the floor, looking so small and helpless staring up at him. He closed his eyes.

"Yuki, I'm sorry. I won't ask him, not ever."

"He wouldn't judge you for it. I know he wouldn't."

"How would you know? He doesn't hardly know who you are."

"I know, but he doesn't seem like he would judge you."

"If I go to him, ask him for this, he'll own me. I will not be indebted to that overprivileged twit."

Yuki sighed. "You're so difficult, and sometimes I don't know what to do with you."

"Let me sleep?"

"You need blood, otherwise you'll wake up in a frenzy."

Zero glared at the ceiling.

"Just swallow your pride, grow a pair, and ask him."

He looked at her, shock on his face. She pulled him to his feet and led him to the door. She left with him, but went to her room. He stood against the wall, listening to her door click shut, shocked about her attitude. With a defeated sigh, he stumbled slowly down the stairs and out towards the Moon Dorms.

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Kaname was laying on his chaise lounge, an arm draped over his eyes. He was crying. Silent sobs wracked his delicate frame and tears soaked the arm of his shirt. He felt miserable and betrayed. He had trusted Zero.

"He said he loved me!" A loud sob echoed in his chest as he began to cry harder. Sound finally escaping his lips.

After a few more moments, someone knocked on his door. He tried to regain his composure enough to speak.

"Who is it?" His voice cracked with a painful sob.

They didn't answer. Kaname stood up, frustrated now as well, and marched over to the door. When he opened it, he was surprised to see who stood before him.

Zero looked at Kaname's face and felt odd. It was paler than normal, and his cheeks were blotched and red. Tears left wet trails down his face as he stared at the level D, obviously waiting for an answer. He felt something break inside at seeing the state the oh-so-strong pureblood was in.

"What the hell are you doing here, Zero?"

"Yuki kicked me out of my room. She told me to talk to you. Trust me, I'd rather not be here."

After his statement, however, Zero wished he could take it back.

"THEN LEAVE!! You didn't have to come here!"

Kaname turned away and sunk to his knees, sobbing harder. He wasn't breathing well either. The breath that was making it in clicked against the pained wails emanating from the vampire's body. Zero watched from the doorway, feeling guilty knowing that Kaname's state was because of him.

"Kaname?"

"W-why are y-you still here? If you w-want to go, then just g-go!"

"I'm sorry, okay?"

"Stop lying to me? You fucking liar, I hate you, just get out!!!"

Kaname had his forehead to the floor, screaming incoherently. Zero complied, shutting the door behind him.

Once the door clicked shut Kaname curled in on himself, unable to move from the floor. His sobs quieted once more and he let his tears stain the rug beneath him.

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Zero was sitting beneath the tree where he and Kaname had shared their first kiss. He was nearly crying himself. He didn't think he'd ever hurt someone so badly. He couldn't believe that he had been the reason the pureblood was so broken.

"I didn't know that it mattered to him..." He spoke to the sky.

The wind picked up and he closed his eyes, letting a tear finally escape.

"I can't do this. Maybe I should just let myself fall. He wouldn't miss a stupid, worthless level D."

He let the tears fall, his head resting in his hands.