Letting Go|✔

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October 04th 2015

Dear Nora,

I went to Sarah's office today for our appointment. She thinks I am doing better. It's been almost three weeks from the last time I saw her. How could I possibly have changed in a matter of three weeks? I don't even know if I indeed have changed. I still feel empty inside, but I didn't tell her that. I also didn't tell her about Alfie. We only discussed about my practice and college. She insists I should return to the dorm, but I don't think I am ready. The thing is, I am scared. I am so fucking scared Nor! I am scared of going back to an empty room that once used to be so full of life. It was our dorm Nora. I can't just live there anymore. I can't even bear the looks of pity people give me every time I am walking to my classes.

I guess from all the negatives, the only positive ones are the fact that I am finally catching up with my classes and that swimming is going great, as Robin is finally back on his duty to keep pushing me to my limits.

Alfie left my house, but the constant attempts of his texting and calling me are not gone.

Why isn't he giving up Nora?

Love you like crazy,

Aurora