ever since the bus ride, i got the heart eyes for you. literally. we were laughing so much, trying to take off seatbelts and tickling eachother, i could go on for days. i want it to happen again. it shatters my heart because you'll never feel the same. it's so hard loving you, nobody understands me. you have so many girls who like you and one of their friends were talking shit about me behind my back. and guess what? she was my childhood best friend. she changed so much. i wish i could just erase memories from my mind into ashes. there's also and event happening tomorrow. i want to go but i don't want to see you. probably that bitchy 'friend' of mine already told you i like you.
i hope i can just distract myself from happening.