I Miss Us

chapter 1

Jayy's POV

"OH MY SATAN I hate my life!!" I yelled while  pacing back and forth. I looked at Maggie who was sitting on my bed. "I hate being 22 I hate it so much!" she looked at me confused. "Don't look at me as if I'm crazy, I'm not crazy!" I said as I picked up the Jack Daniels from my dresser and gulped it down.

"Why can't my life be like old times huh? like back when I was 19 or 20? I know I tell everyone to forget about my old self but I didn't know my new self would turn out like this! the thing is that I actually miss my old self too. You know like my long hair, the way I did my make-up, my old clothes. But no i had to cut off all my hair and grow a beard." I looked in the mirror to see my combed black hair and facial hair. "Maybe I'll shave."

I sat on my bed next to Maggie "You understand right?" she just looked at me, smiled, and nodded. "No you don't" I said as I got up from my bed. "You don't understand anything." I looked at her and she frowned.

"I shouldn't be complaining right? At least I have a life. A good one too." I said as I looked down at my shoes. I took another sip of my Jack and looked back at Maggie who was still looking at me.

"You know what I miss the most? Dahvie. I feel like I'm growing apart from him and he isn't doing anything to stop it." I took another sip, then another. "I miss the way he made videos with me, or when we would drive around making a laugh out of stupid little things we saw, or the way we would play with each other making the bestest of memories, I missed the way we would almost always hang out like we were brothers" a tear fell from the side of my face. "and you know what I miss the most about him, about us? The way he kissed me. It felt as if I could do anything when he did"

I took another big gulp of my Jack. "It's ok, you and Jack are all I need to be happy " Maggie frowned at me again. "Maybe I should do something about it. yeah I should. Maybe bring out the old camera. Dahvie would definitely make more vids if I do." I said excitedly "or maybe I could even-" I was cut off by the slamming of the door.

"Jayy I home!" Dahvie yelled from down stairs. I walked over too my door to go downdownstairs and great Dahvie. "oh" I said as I popped my head back in my room "by the way thanks for helping me out Maggie it was really nice having someone to talk to." I looked at her "meow" she said as she jumped off my bed to also great Dahvie.