I'm in the midst of my freshman year. I went to the movies with my boyfriend and some friends. It was for his birthday, which made me feel incredibly guilty. On the car ride home all I could do is stay quiet and question so much. What am I doing here if I don't love the dude? It's been that way for a while, but now for some reason I have feelings for one of my fucking friends. Crazy.
Three days later we broke up. I'm super fucking happy. I kind of have this new sense of freedom, I wasted so much time not doing what I actually wanted to. I'm going to quit that shit.
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The month is almost over. I've been talking to Christian a lot. He actually cheers me up a lot, and it's such a new thing. I don't want to lose this it feels so nice.
A few days past and he asks me out! Well I tried but kept stumbling over my words so he took charge and awkwardly asked. Classic. I know it's fast, but fuck it what do I got to lose?
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Kaylee stopped being friends with me. I get maybe it wasn't the best decision, but she wasn't the best friend to me. I mean neither was I. Maybe I'm just getting rid of people I wasn't meant to have in my life. But now I have one that I know is supposed to be here. So kind of worth it in a way, huh.
