Because you love me and I love you~ Yoonmin And Other Ships Along The Way!

Committing Suicide

*Guys before I start writing a new part um..I'm not being rude about this part, it's not real that one of the BTS members would kill themselves. I know they wouldn't. But I'm sorry guys. I really am. I'm saying this because like I don't wanna be labeled as a BTS hater, I really love BTS. I remember I got a notification on Google telling me that BTS Jimin has gotten his third death threat note I think, I was really surprised. I didn't know he had gotten three, honestly I don't pay much attention to what happens to them and I'm trying to keep up so I can know what's happening and such. But still I love them. I don't want anything to happen to them. That's all I have to say. Peace. And also for this I'm gonna make this part seem like it's been months since Suga hasn't talked to Jimin. So yea...*

Jimin POV: I can't take it anymore. No more feeling sorry for myself anymore, if Suga can't forgive me for my actions then why is there a reason for me to live anyways. It has been months now and ARMY fans has been worrying about us, I tell them everything is fine. "We're okay" I say. As I lay down in my bed with tears falling down endlessly, I decided to write a note to all the BTS members. I hope Suga forgets me. Because I will forget him. Voices go through my head telling me to end it and it will become better soon, I say to myself"Yeah. Your right. It will become better. No one will care anyways. Stay happy." As I wrote my suicide note I went into the kitchen and got a knife, luckily the others didn't see me because they were in their rooms. I went into the bathroom and looked into the mirror. I was a mess. But I didn't care. I cut my arm. It stinged a lot. And then I cut it again but deeper, I felt pain and dizzy. I was going numb. I dropped the knife and fell onto the floor. It's weird that I'm not dying. I think I just passed out from all the pain, I wanted to die dammit. Not still be alive. But what's the use anyways. Who cares anyways.

Jin POV: I came out of my room and decided to check up on Jiminie-hyung, to see how he's doing. It's been months now. Hope he's okay. I opened the door and noticed he wasn't there, I saw a note on the bed. I picked it up and gasped. It was a suicide note! It said"BTS members. I'm sorry for everything. I am such a screw up. It really has been months since I'm not talking to Suga, and then I realized I couldn't take it anymore. Voices in my head kept telling me to end it all and things will be better, they were right. Things will become better. I hope you guys can forget me. Because I will forget you. I'll make sure I'll watch over you guys in heaven. - Love Park Jimin <3" I cried at the note. I went to the bathroom and it was locked. Jimin was in there. I screamed out his name. No response. I kicked the door open and saw that he was laying on the floor with his blood all over the place, I went down on my knees and put him on my lap. I cried a lot. I checked his pulse to see if he was dead. No. He's still alive. I smiled a bit. I screamed out the other members name and they saw me holding Jimin and crying, his blood was on me and I didn't care. The others yelled out what happened. Jungkook said"Jin what the hell what happened?! Why are you bloody?? What happened to Jimin?!" I said"He..he tried committing suicide. He's not dead..he's...he's still alive. PLEASE CALL AN AMBULANCE NOW!!!" Taehyung quickly took out his phone and dialed the ambulance, they took him to the hospital and we followed along.

~Time Skip~

We were at the hospital and the others couldn't stand to see me in his blood, they asked the nurse for a clean shirt. I put my head down and cried, I couldn't stop crying. RM rubbed my back telling me that he'll be alright, after a few minutes passed the nurse said"You can see him now. He's awake." I got up quickly from my chair and went into his room, he looked up and saw us. But he put his head back down. I took out the suicide note and gave it to J-hope, he let the others see it. I pulled up a chair and sat down next to him and said"Jiminie-hyung...why did you try to kill yourself? Why?" Tears ran down his face. He couldn't say anything as he was in tears, then he said one word"Suga." That's the only thing that came outta his mouth, I decided to call Suga to get him down here but Jimin grabbed my arm and said"Don't call him. He already caused enough trouble to me. He's dead to me now. Just like how I'm dead to him." I ignored him and dialed Suga, told him to come down to the hospital. He asked why and I said to him that I'll explain once he gets here, he said he'll be down here soon.

~Time Skip~

It's been hours now. It took Suga a while to get down here, so I said"What the hell took you so long?" He apologized because of busy traffic. I noticed he had flowers in his hand and he said"So..what happened? Whose that guy in the hospital bed?" I looked at him angrily and said"Jiminie-hyung dumbass. He wrote a suicide note. He tried killing himself. But I'm glad he is still alive. I don't want him die...no one doesn't want him to. Thanks to you." He was shocked and said"I'm sorry I didn't mean it." I yelled at him"YAH! Don't say sorry to me! Say it to the man who loves you Yoongi! He did this because of you! It's been months and now your saying oh i'm sorry! Your a terrible friend. Don't ever speak to me. Just..ugh!!" I walked away from him in angry. My face started to feel wet. Then I realized I was crying out of frustration. I tried to wipe my tears away but they kept falling, I couldn't hold back my feelings anymore. I feel bad for screaming at him. I ran up to him from behind and hugged his back, I told him that I was sorry. He put his hands on my mine and said"It's okay Jin." I let go of him and told him to go to him.

Suga POV: As I walked away from Jin I saw Jimin laying down on the bed resting peacefully, I had forgotten how beautiful he looks sleeping like that. I touched his cheeks and started caressing it. Their soft and chubby and it's cute. I haven't touched him for months now, I forgotten his touches. Tears started rolling down my cheeks and I started crying, I felt so bad that I didn't wanna forgive myself for anything. It's my fault that he did this. I whispered in his ear and said"I love you." More tears kept falling I left the flowers on his table and got up and began walking away, until I felt a hard grip on my arm. I turned around and Jimin had woke up. Tears fell down his face too and he said"I love you too..." He pulled me back and pulled me down for a kiss, I completely forgotten his touches. Even his lips. I touched his lips before but never put them against mine though. We were kissing for a good minute till someone cleared their throat and said"Am I interrupting a romantic scene right now?" It was J-hope and the others. We pulled away quickly and looked away blushing, and I said"So uh..I didn't know you guys came in. Guess I got caught up in the moment I guess." Jimin chuckled and said"What kind of moment did you get caught up in? Was it kissing me or was it having your OWN moment?" The others laughed and Jungkook said"Hey! I feel like going out to eat. Let's sign Jimin out of the hospital and all of us can go." Jimin looked at me and said"Yeah. It sounds like a great idea. I just uh..this is embarrassing. I need new clothing. My other ones are stained with blood." Jin said"Hey I could take them and try to wash it out. I also need to clean the bathroom because it's stained with your blood too." Jimin put his head down feeling bad, he scratched his head and said"Sorry Jin-hyung. You don't have to do all that. I can do it when we get back. I don't want you breaking your back doing that." He left the room and went to the nurse to check out Jimin out of the hospital, and he also asked for new clothing too. They gave him a plain white t-shirt and black joggers. I'm surprised they had this kind of stuff here, he got dressed and we went out of the hospital. We went out to eat and we had fun. We laughed and singed, kind of annoyed a lot people but we were happy and that satisfied me.

~Time Skip~

Jimin POV: We got back home laughing and full of joy, we couldn't help it. We were just so happy. Jin got a towel and a bucket full of soap water and headed towards the bathroom, I got in front of him and said"Hey! I said I was gonna do that. What part didn't you understand at all?" He chuckled and said"None of it. Now move outta the way Jiminie-hyung. I have work to attend to." I didn't budge and he tried to get pass me and he couldn't so he said"Fine. Here! I don't know why you wanna do it so badly." I smiled and took the stuff away from him and started cleaning, looking at my own blood made feel nauseous and I started vomiting. How is that possible? I can't get sick just by looking at my own blood. I flushed the toilet and went back to cleaning, it took me hours to get the blood off the floor. It has been like..I don't know. 3 or 2 hours and the blood did dry up. But at least I was able to get all the blood off. Probably. I dumped the bucket into the toilet. It went from clear water to bloody water. I wiped off the sweat and got some clothes from my room and decided to take a shower, as I got into the shower I looked at my arm. The cuts on my arm were deep and visible for everyone to see, as long as I keep it wrapped up and taken care of and also keep it hidden it should be able to heal. I can't believe I did this, I put my friends through a lot. They worried for me a lot and I also noticed something, whenever they smile at me I can tell that through their eyes and smiles they are still sad inside due to what happened. They try to keep happy faces so they don't be worried about me, but I can tell that they are still sad. BTS. I'm sorry to worry you. Just so you know I'll be okay. I promise...