31.07.18
My friend read my palm a little while ago and told me I was going to have a really long life. Why the hell would whoever's up there give ME a suicidal kid a long life???? It doesn't make sense! It's like they're torturing me, all I really, constantly want is to die so I can see my dad again, and of course everyone else as well.
I hate the world.
Ok so 1776 isn't talking to me as much anymore (literally just today he's just busy and I'm a fucking idiot) and I just had this realization that he's probably gonna break up with me. Now for most people this isn't bad right? It's just eating ice cream and crying for a while and then they're done...but it's gonna make me worse. I don't wanna cut again. You're probably like oh you're overreacting, but after California broke up with me was the first time I cut. That was when I realized I had depression and was suicidal. I'm so fucking scared you guys....
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Beneath The Stars (A Journal)
RandomI'm a fourteen year old girl who is fighting anxiety, depression, and perhaps a form of OCD. I know, I call it my grocery list of mental illnesses. Writing helps.
