One-shot book

KatsuDeku- He slipped

(TW:SUICIDE,DEPRESSION AND OVERALL ANGST)

Katsuki Bakugou POV:
  All I could hear was muffled screams. I hated it. The way Deku always screamed when I hit him or sent an explosion at him. From what I've heard from friends who have some knowledge of anatomy, he probably has extreme types of nerve damage from the 3rd degree burns, but I keep doing it.

  I keep hurting him. And no I don't want to but at this point it feels like I need to. My friends tell me to stop because of the hearing damage I've probably given Deku, they tell me to stop because if I don't he'll probably die. So I just stop using my Quirk. I just beat him instead.

  I sit back in my chair as the teachers call out who wants to go to what highschool, he calls my name and clearly he says U.A., and of course I just smile and make a remark to make everyone get mad at me, then the teacher says that Deku wants to go to U.A., I'm not even mad, he was my rival after all, but he didn't have a Quirk, I might as well just give him his reality now, as everyone laughs at him I throw him across the room and he hits the back wall with a thud, he makes some excuse that he didn't want to go against me, and that he was sorry.

  'Why is sorry for me hurting him..?'

  Me and my friends decided to corner Deku after class, I set his notebook on fire and he almost jumped out the window for it, and that put me on edge, it scared me to some extend, I threw the book out anyways and mocked him for wanting to be a hero.

  "How are you going to be a hero if you can't do anything. How about you do everyone a favor and take a dive off of the rooftop."

  I couldn't even believe the words that came out of my mouth. I didn't want Deku to die, but even as I thought this I turned my back to walk away, it unsettled me that Deku didn't do or say anything, I was walking alone, my friends already going ahead of me.

  I walked past the pond that I threw Dekus notebook into and saw fish picking and eating at it. "What the hell? Why hasn't Deku gotten this yet?" I picked the note book up and the pages began to fall to mush, nothing was readable and it was burnt, I looked at some of the still visible notes, it was years worth of information. I turned a page and saw that I was in the book. It made my heart clench, I sat the book down on the ledge of the pond and turned to go back to the school to check on Deku.

  I walked into the school and couldn't find him in any classrooms, I shakily walk up to the roof, I saw Deku there, his shoes were off and a note was placed beside them. Deku just sat there and seemed to be staring off.

  "Deku, what the hell are you doing up here."
  He didn't answer my question.

  "You know my mom died, right, Katsuki?"

  I was surprised his didn't call me Kacchan and he didn't even look at me.

  "I.. didn't know, I thought she was still alive."

  I was telling the truth I never really listened to my mom but I'm sure she must've mentioned.

  "You were the only person that was keeping me here, but even you don't want me."

  Those words terrified me,

  "Deku-"

  "You know I can't hear out of my left ear right? You know that if my arm gets broken one more time I have to have surgery right? You know that I have scars EVERYWHERE from burn marks right?!"

  Deku was practically screaming as he turned towards me, tears streamed down his face. I've seen Deku cry many times, but this time, it was the worst thing I've ever seen. His eyes were blood shot and dull, he was standing on that ledge, like he wasn't scared or anything, but he was crying. I put him through so much pain.

  "'Zuku..."

  He only smiled.

  "Now you use my real name? After all these years, I... haven't heard my real name in so, so long.."

  My eyes started to tear up. I didn't want Deku to die. He was my rival, he was the person I grew up with, it was always us in competition.

  "Izuku. Midoriya Izuku, is your name. Are you happy I've finally said it? Please get down from there."

  Deku only smiled once more, this wasn't his smile, it wasn't the 'I can do it' smile. It was the 'I give up' smile. And that made my heart sink and just as I tried to make my way forward to try and stop him he slipped.

  He slipped

  He slipped...

  I saw his eyes for a split second, and he was terrified, he screamed.

  "KACCHAN HELP."

  "IZUKU!"

  I tried to grab him, I tried to help him, I tried to get there as fast as I could. But...

  He slipped.

And it's all my fault

   I look down at the note that he left, as tears streamed down my face, I shakily picked up the note and read it.

   'Dear Kacchan, You're the only one I can really write to since mom died. If you're reading this I'm dead. And you can go off and be a hero with out any interruptions! Aren't you happy!
-More tears streamed down my face. I could feel him smiling as he wrote the sentence and it broke my heart but I kept reading- I hope you actually get this, I'm sorry for doing whatever I did to you. -Dammit Deku you didn't do anything!- But I wanted to say that I always admired you, you were always the hero I wanted to be and I loved you. -I didn't want to read more, already feeling heartbroken- I'm running out of space to write so goodbye Kacchan, I hope your life is better with out me in the way! -Yours truly, Deku.'

  I put down the note and called the ambulance, shaking more than I can even imagine. After the police arrived and asked me the basic questions I was able to walk back home, I walked past the pond that still had Dekus books resting on it. "God I wish you were here." I said out loud in the weakest voice you could imagine, as tears streamed my face, I collapsed on the ground and I knew I couldn't walk any farther, so I just sat there and cried and went over everything that happened. And I kept remembering,

  He slipped.