The Diary

Chapter one

Day 1 of the transformation

My boyfriend he supports me

Hi,I'm Alex I'm a boy I have been taking meds for most part of my life to do my transformation to a boy. I'm known as Alex but my family calls me by my real name. No one knows this name only Alex. Isn't it great my boyfriend loves me I love him. My mom hated it she says gay is a disease. I hate her. She doesn't know one thing about being gay. I love being gay and being me. Yes I get bullied in highschool but j don't care.

Yes you might think he's crazy. why? Because I wear black all day all night everyday. You might ask why? Because I'm bleeding. No not that type of bleeding. On purpose. I cut myself. No one knows. Only me. I love the feeling. I have been doing it since age 10 and I'm 16. I have had about 36 suicide attempts. Hahahahahah I know right. I could only tell you because you can't speak can you? I feel shitty. I love being a boy and having a boyfriend but. It sucks. My mom, family,friends, everyone I know hates me. My mom tells my therapist for my transformation she loves me and she shows me so much affection. But at home she beats me. Hits me. Shoves me into doors. She hates me. Im fine with it. Im so used to getting yelled at. Im used to the words. Everything that happens to me I'm used to. I really don't know if my mom actually hates me or does she love me and not know how to show it? I can't live.

I feel like my boyfriend is cheating on me with a girl I'm not to sure.

We'll find out won't we. Just take some time.O.O

Love,
Alex