She says shes okay. I say she's pathetic. She says she has it under control. I say not for long. She says she's going crazy. I say she's already there. She's says she's ashamed of me. I say I pity her.
Nothing is easy. Why is she like this? Ahhhh, why has she started acting like this again. who am i?I am her and she is me. confusing right? you'll get used to it or you wont it's up to you. Soooo what should we talk about? There's so much! Ah right let's start off with something light. Just kidding lets not. Why have you brought me back? what's the reason?
It's been a long ass time since i've been here. It's been a good break away. What was it, a year? Nooo could it have been that long? Wow in that case she really must have been fighting off this demon. Oh wait but does she count me as a demon? No, no she doesn't. She cant im just the voice inside her head. I'm her conscious. Eh, something like that. If she has brought me out then she isn't in the best place.
Of course we both new her "peaceful" time would come to an end. Pretty great right? Not for her. She must be struggling pretty damn hard. I am her cover up. She does this. emotionally overwhelmed. Maybe! That's what happened when she broke the plastic hanger against the wall and without thinking swung it down against her arm.
Ah just a small enough to easily say that a cat scratched her. She knows the scary part though. when it happened she calmed down. She wasn't able to calm down while texting her boyfriend even though he was being very cute. Ok so maybe she calmed down a tad bit. isn't that scary so that only ,means one thing she is slipping.
oh yea she definitely is slipping big time. slipping into the old habits that will leave her getting into trouble. who knew that slicing ones arm could stop the overwhelming emotions threatening to make her insane.
