Being A Grier Sister

Sixteen

Alex's POV

"can I have Tweleve tacos and twelve Baja Blasts?" I asked the guy

The boys were too lazy to walk in side Taco Bell so now I'm ordering at the drive through

"sure thing that will be $5.85 please" he said into the mic

We pulled up an I cannot believe who this was.

"hey Alex, I didn't think you could finish all that with your disorder." he smirked

Justin. He's my ex-boyfriend, I broke up with him because he just wanted sex from me.

"I-um.. It's not all for me. They're for my friends, I just got a Baja Blast." I choked

"makes sense do they know about your disorder and self harm. do they know a suicidal freak?" Justin said getting louder by the minute

By now, all the boys' laughter and conversations had ended all Justin had their attention.

"Here's your food and remember to cut tonight because I will make you mine again Alex, I will." he chuckled to himself as I drove off

"disorder? self harm" Hayes asked

"Alex." Nash said sternly

"what's this disorder and I thought you stopped cutting" Brent lectured

"can't talk, I gotta keep my eyes on the road" I said trying to change the subject

Hayes' POV

'Disorder. Self Harm.' I kept thinking to myself 'how could Alex do this?"

Alex and I were always close as we were growing up since she would always get stuck baby sitting me when Nash and Will wanted to go somewhere. She always seemed so happy and carefree, like nothing else mattered. She was always that kind of person to make you feel special... I guess no one was there to do that for her.

I looked at Nash and tried to read his facial expression. Anger? No. Sadness? No. Guilt? Yes. Why would Nash feel guilt? He has nothing to do with any of this..? Is he the reason Alex cuts? No, if Nash did something to her Alex would just slap him. Hmmm.. but what disorder does she have? She's smart so I know it's not anything like that.

Nash's POV

----flashback----

"Hey your that Hamilton kid right?" Justin asked walking up to me and Cam with his crew

"um...yeah" I stuttered

Justin was one of the most popular kids in 7th grade... as for me and Cam, not so much.

"you wanna have lunch with us for the rest of the week?" he asked

I nodded eagerly. If you're seen just talking to Justin, you get girls and girls have boobies.

"I'll make you a deal okay? Cameron, why don't you take a walk with one of the boys" he said "okay so you and your little friend can have lunch with us but for one thing. Your sister. You have to let me date her, and do 'other things' to her so I can become more popular. Okay?"

Alex. I don't want him to hurt her but if I don't then I'll get hurt. Eh sorry Alex.

"Okay" I said

"perfect! now you can't tell her any of this or let's just say.. you might get a visit from one of my buddies" he spoke through his teeth

Justin and Alex ended up dating for two years. That's when Alex started wearing makeup and tight clothing. She wasn't herself anymore.

---end of flashback---

It's all my fault. I knew what he did to her and didn't say a thing so I could be popular. I'm a terrible brother! I should have never made that deal with him. I even would hear her screams late at night and wouldn't do a thing about it..

Matts POV

She self harms and has a disorder. Alex Marie Grier self harms. Alex Marie Grier has a disorder. My own girlfriend is suicidal! I always knew she was insecure but not this much...

We pulled into the driveway and everyone was still silent. You could hear everyone breathe.

"hey guys did you grab me a taco!" Jack J shouted from upstairs

"EVERYONE COUCH NOW!" Alex screamed causing everyone to rush into the living room

"what's up?" Jack G asked

The Jacks had to watch Skylynn as we went to Taco Bell since she didn't want to come.

"well you see I have an eating disorder" she explained "no matter how many times you say I'm skinny and shit, it won't change a thing." we all sighed at her remark "I also havnt stopped cutting, I know I told you guys I did but then I started having dreams about all this bad stuff that had happened around my freshman year of high school so yeah" she continued "I understand if you guys don't want to be seen in public with me"

"it's my fault Alex and I'm sorry" Nash cried

"Nash, how could it be your fault?" Alex cooed

Alex's POV

"I knew he was abusing you and hurtin you" Nash said

"what"

"Justin. I knew he was forcing you to have sex with him and when you refused he would beat you, I knew the whole time and didn't do a thing about it" he said

"HAMILTON NASH GRIER TELL ME YOU ARE LYING!" I shouted

Nash. My own brother didn't help me.

"DAMN RIGHT ITS YOUR FAULT! YOUR A HORRIBLE PERSON! YOU KNEW I NEEDED HELP AND DIDNT EVEN BOTHER TO DO ANYTHING!" I screamed loud enough for the whole neighborhood to hear

"yes, yes I did. but see if I didn't then I wouldn't be famous right now. yOU SEE ALEX! ME NOT HELPING YOU GOT ME WHERE I AM NOW! SO I DONT REGRET A SINGLE THING YOU SLUT!" he shouted at me

"ME THE SLUT! HE FORCED ME!" I screamed back

"YOU AND I BOTH KNOW YOU COULD HAVE FOUGHT BACK!"

"FINE YOU KNOW WHAT NASH! I DONT GIVE A FUCK AT THIS POINT! YEAH MAKE ME THE BAD PERSON BUT AT LEAST I WASNT THE ONE WHO CARED TO MUCH ABOUT MYSELF TO HELP MY OWN FREAKING BLOOD!" I shouted years running down my face.

I ran upstairs into the bathroom and looked for my razor. 'where the hell is it' I thought. YES HERE IT IS! one cute, two cut, three cut, four. That should be good for the night.

*knock knock*

"c-can I come in?" a faint voice said

oh no. He can't see these.

"one sec" I said

I through on a sweatshirt and greeted Hayes.

"Nash didn't mean those things, Justin must have spiked his drink." he said"

"I don't know Hayes, maybe he is right. I am the slut." I trailed off

"Alex, look at me. Your perfect in every single way okay? You used to be happy and joyful, what happened?" Hayes asked

"middle school"i mumbled

He chuckled and got up. I guess he's gone, I change into my PJs then. After I changed Hayes came back in sweats and had Mean Girls in his hand. He knows me so well. The rest of the day Hayes and I cuddled and watched movies. This is why I love Hayes.