It feels like a rainy day
A dark and gloomy way,
I could almost hear the sounds of thunder
Flashings of lightening make me shudder,
The only thing odd is it's all in my head.
Though caused by what my world has fed.
I feel so weak,
From fighting hard not to panic,
Almost lost in my own thoughts,
And worries, It hurts
With nowhere to turn to,
I just want to run but where to?
I feel my chin aches,
From frowns, worry, it shakes,
Sometimes tears and at others dark,
No emotions at all, just blank.
A smile takes all my will power,
Which I now find very hard to muster.
Trying not to be roped into all this,
Trying to see the good in all things.
Trying to stay positive for bliss,
But my world seems to just piss.
It's so hard I want to give up,
Wishing everything would just stop.
Worst of all I feel so alone,
So scared in the dark, alone.
Not from having no one around me,
But from not being able to speak
I just can't seem to find my voice
Who wants to be around silent noise.
The one I begged to hear my story
Has somehow joined the jury
And I wonder what all this fight is for,
We're just forced to stand on four.
When with no one to share the victory with,
We never really win.
Sadness, pain and struggle,
Still manage to find a way to smuggle.
It's all vanity,
Solomon was right in all clarity
But all is well,
I still try to my mind sell.
And through it all, every edge,
I still hold on to the knowledge
Which I have about Him,
The God who is always with me.
Though He seems really silent,
I know he's still with me lest.
And His plans for me are good.
Over this darkness he'll surely brood.
And His purpose will be fulfilled
And my joy will be filled.
I don't know how He'll do it,
But His salvation, I'll somehow see it.
