If it took me a thousand words to say how I feel
Would u listen to me and believe that it's real?
Please understand I'm weak and I'm small
I don't think I'll survive even one more fall.
I'm quiet and lonely, afraid to open up to you
Afraid you would reject me if I ever do.
I'm afraid of the dark, afraid to be in the light
Will I ever see the day when I'm lost in the night?
You say you are here and I'll never be alone
But loneliness sinks deep to the core of each bone.
I have lost my way, and my will to fight
Because staying alive is taking all of my might.
I've had the thoughts before, the knife, the gun
And just flying away sounds like such fun.
But your holding me here, holding my hand
Not asking me to stay, more of a demand.
I know that if I go you will follow me down
And just because I'm hurt, I won't let you drown.
So smile my friend I'm not leaving your side
And I know you would find me where ever I hide
So hold my hand now, I've laid down my knife
You once gave me reason to not quit on my life.
And know if I die now, that You did your best,
But only I know the time I must finally rest.
