A siren's honor

Prologe

They have the land, and we have the sea. We mermaids have been a creature both feared and desired by humans for centuries. Most merfolk choose to take advantage of our legendary beauty. We are the sirens. Creatures who mock the brave sailors by luring them with our irresistible beauty, only to kill them moments after the entranced men receive what they so long for. It is what we do...

As for me, I am revolted by the entire idea. My mother was a siren, her mother was a sure, heck I am a siren! I was born to follow in her swim trail. I have power over the clouds in the sky and the waves in the sea. My song is irresistible to anyone and everyone who dares to listen. One look at my body would have any human spellbound.

And yet, I fight my own nature.

I know it is what I was born to do. It is the reason I swim the sea. And yet I fight my own destiny. I will never hurt a human. Not now, not ever. My lips will never utter a hypnotic song to be heard. My arms will never hold a lovesick human. My honor will not be blemished. Never. I am bound and determined to keep myself pure.

Even as it breaks me down from the inside out.

My heart aches to feel the love of a man. I long to see someone look at me with something other than indifference. I wish I could show someone what I am capable of, without hurting anyone, or blemishing my honor.
I long to make love. And every day my desire grows stronger.

Why must I be cursed to want this?! Why must my body cry out against my mind and common sense? Mermaids are incapable of true love. That is what everyone has ever told me. All we can do is trick humans into loving us back... and then kill them before the spell can wear off and they can give us what we deserve.

There are no male mermaids. This is why we must make love with humans. It is the only way to reproduce. For us to keep our race alive to see another age. It is what we were born to do...

But no! I never will give in! I will die before I let myself give into my own selfishness. Self-worth is nothing to me! The mermaids mock me for resisting myself.
Let them mock.
Let them hate.
Let me be forever alone.

Because in the end, I will have done the right thing... after all that's what matters above all else... right? All I can hope, is that my resolve will stay strong against my growing hunger. And it grows stronger every day...