your love is killing me

                                            Messed up

Ava's pov*

i sat there with a blade in my hand and tears running down my face. I had once again ruined 3 days. I slowly and painfully slid the blade across my wrists and thighs 20 times each. I just wanted to die my whole life had been hell, the only people who get me through most of the time were my bands (5sos, bvb, aa, ss, PTV, etc,.) and magcon. I always sit in my room and come up with different scenarios of what would happen if i ever met them. i loved Matthew, Hayes, and carter, I loved all of them but those three just seem to stand out the most. my mom abandoned me after i was born and my dad as i get older hates me more and more each day with him coming home drunk and abusing me i just couldn't take it anymore so my pain resulted in self harm and starving.

avas pov*

my dad had kicked me out of my own home!! I sat on the curb crying when a van pulled up and asked me if i was ok i lied and said "I'm fine" with mascara running down my face the man then said "thats a lie get in." i told him i was going to go grab my stuff so i ran inside to grab a backpack when my dad came up the stairs drunk "where are you going?" he asked with a smirk on his face. "far away from you" i said and spit in his face. i turned back around and put a few outfits in the bag with my foundation, mascara, and eyelash curler. I dont like to wear too much makeup to make me look like a skank. When I zipped up the bag to go to the bathroom to grab my brush and blades my dad turned me around and punched me in the face and said "fat emo bitch" with that i grabbed my stuff and left.  I hopped into the van not noticing who was there with me as soon i looked up all eyes were on me, ugh i hate attention. there was a moment of silence before i noticed i was on magcons bus!! i kept quiet because i didnt want them to think I was crazy. i blushed and the boys in unison said "awwww" and i blushed an even deeper thats when i saw Hayes i lit up as he said "hi im Hayes!" very quietly i said "hi im ava nice to meet you" oh shit i thought i forgot my bracelets!!

Hayes pov*

she was gorgeous she had blonde hair and blue eyes and perfect lips. she was wearing one of my favorite bands t-shirts which is suicide silence (im making this up) with a dark green skinny jeans and black combat boots. she was really skinny though and it didnt look healthy but i was waiting to ask once we got to know each other better but as i was looking at her i saw her wrists... they were covered in scars and new cuts that looked really deep so i got up and sat next to her since she was alone i took her wrist and kissed it and said your perfect and she started crying.

avas pov*

he kissed my wrists and called me perfect and i started crying! he asked me "why?" with tears in his eyes. i told him that i was fat, ugly, gross, emo i could go on forever. he looked into my eyes and told me to shut up and that i was perfect and  he gave me his number i told him i didnt have a phone so when we arrived he bought me an iphone 5c blue my favorite color "you didnt have to do that" i said "your worth it" he was perfect. he took me to the mall and he bought me new clothes and undergarments which was awkward with him watching me i blushed. i thanked him a million times today was perfect.

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