where's love?

chapter 1 (intro)

Define boyfriend? For me, its a long term companion in a romantic or sexual relationship with your opposite sex like lovers. So what am I gonna call for the short term relationship, fling? whatever.

Here's my dilema, some of my relationship only last in days, weeks and the longest is almost 2 months with 3 breakups. I bet you are thinking now that Im not a keeper. Its just that I dont feel the SPARKS, yeah i still believe in that. So I break up with them ASAP, you think its unfair? NOT!! I just dont want them to be trap in a one sided relationship so I set them free and give them chance to find love that i didnt give them in return.

So let's get this straight. If a girl has too many EX's, it doesnt mean that she's a whore or anything. It just that we keep on looking for the RIGHT ONE but keep on choosing the wrong one. Am i just convinsing myself or im stating the obvious? grrrrr!! Should I stop searching for love and wait for it to find me? That's what my friends always say and its getting irritating!!! I mean come on, how can love find me if it doesnt have feet? haha now im being sarcastic.

"hey! Blue!! are you gonna come or not" arghh stupid bestfriend, that's Ice, they always disturb my internal battle with myself. So while Im doing what girls usually do, let me introduce my self. Im Heaven Blue, cool huh? I really love my name to death because its unique. There's nothing interesting about me, my whole life is so plain boring. I like having internal battle with myself, as you can see. I have many ex's, I stop counting when I reach 20. Im 20, 5'4 in height, small boobs, small butt. I think your thinking now that "how could a guy be in love with her if she doesnt have the body?" people not all dudes are jerks -.- Im crazy. Like first I want to do this then I change my mind, you doesnt know what is on a girls mind. I got a lot more to tell but right now, Im heading in the kitchen to see my bffs. They are Ice and Harmony. We are a group of friends with different personality, we have something in common. We love books and boys haha.

Ice have a strong personality. She is so confident. Have a good body and a very loud voice. And like me, she also wants to find true love but shes a man hater so wtf!!!!

Harmony is a normal girl, average in her academics. She is so friendly, so you can easily approach her. Afraid to fall in love because she came from a broken family. She see how hes father walk out of her life and now living with a witch. Its her story to tell (different book).

Our name suits our personality. Me, im unpredictable. Sometimes im as clear as the blue sky and sometimes you can see a dark cloud forming. Ok! time to join their conversation.