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"Love.."
I looked straight at his reflection on the mirror in front of me. He just unzipped my dress and I can feel his warm hand slowly caressing my back.
"Stop it," I closed my eyes as I let those words come out from my mouth. "Itigil na natin 'to."
"Sshhh," He continued massaging my back and finally undressed me.
Now I'm looking at my reflection with just my undies on. I don't know what to do. I don't want this to happen. Naiinis ako sa kaniya pero sarili kong katawan tinatraydor ako.
I let him caress my boobs slowly. I tilted my head to give him access to my neck even if I hated to.
Watching our reflection made my knees tremble. I'm so weak. Nawawala ang galit ko sa kaniya. Pilit kong inalala lahat ang mga ginawa niya.
"I hate you..." I finally said it.
He stopped kissing my neck and looked at me on my reflection. His eyes are so dark, full of anger and lust. Nag-iwas ako ng tingin. Hindi ko siya kayang tingnan, at nagsimula nang tumulo ang aking luha.
"Sorry," His hoarse voice gave me chills. He faced me and cupped my face. He slowly wiped my tears with his thumb. "I love you.."
Bigla na lang akong natawa sa sinabi niya.
"You loved me." pagtatama ko.
"You Don't Unders-" I cut him off.
"No, You don't understand. You don't understand how am I feeling. You don't know how much pain I've been through. You don't know anything 'coz you didn't even care! And now you're here like nothing happened? You wanna fuck me? Huh? Okay!" Sigaw ko. Bumuhos ang luha ko habang pinipilit siyang halikan.
Hinawakan niya ang magkabilang balikat ko para pigilan. "What do you mean?" He looks confused.
Dammit! Nagmamaangmaangan ka na naman! Na parang walang nangyari!
"She's pregnant with your child!" Nabasag ang boses ko.
Napaatras siya sa sinabi ko. Na para bang gulat na gulat.
"Sino? Anong pinagsasabi mo?" Naguguluhang tanong niya.
"Your fucking bestfriend and first love!" pasigaw kong sagot.
Unti-unti siyang lumapit sakin, "I didn't even touch her.." mahinhin niyang sambit.
"You kissed her!" I shouted.
Galit na galit ako sa kaniya. Gusto ko siyang saktan physically pero hindi ko kaya. Pagod na pagod na'ko.
"I didn't kissed her! She kissed me!" And now he's yelling at me.
"Fuck your reason!," sigaw ko at unti unti akong nanghina. "And you let her kiss you?" I whispered. I can't shout anymore. I just feel tired. Tired for all of this.
"It's just a friendly kiss.." he closed his eyes.
"How was that a friendly kiss?," I chuckled.
I really can't believe this man! Nagagawa pang magsinungaling eh huling huli ko na siya.
"Umamin siya, Nagulat ako. Hindi ko siya napigilan." He explained.
"We are married for pete's sake! And you let her kissed you and you didn't do anything!? Ano bang sinabi niya? She's your fucking first love and no doubt you still love her," I pushed him and tried to get my dress back.
"Umamin siyang gusto niya ako noon pa. Na nagsisisi siya, kung bakit 'di niya ako pinansin noon." pagpapaliwanag niya.
Napailing ako.
"Sorry ha? Kung di ako dumating sana masaya kayong dalawa-" lumapit siya para pigilan ako.
"Patapusin mo'ko," utos ko sa kaniya. "Sorry kung linandi kita. At ngayong nalaman mo na gusto ka pala niya, nagsisisi ka ba? Nagsisisi ka ba na pinakasalan moko?" Naiiyak kong tanong.
"Hindi, Love.." maamo niyang sagot.
"Ohh?" Natatawa kong sinabi habang nagbabadya ang aking luha. "Liar.." bulong ko sa sarili ko.
"Love, hindi-"
"Huh! Ano ba naman kase ang laban ko sa tatlong taong mahal mo siya? Ohh Make it four years! Hanggang ngayon pala mahal mo siya!" sigaw ko habang tinataas ang zipper ng damit ko.
"Love, ikaw ang pinakasalan ko. Ikaw ang mahal ko. I love you.." he looked hopeless. "You're my wife." Sa huling sinabi niya ay bumagsak ang tingin niya sa sahig.
I clicked my tongue. "As of now..." I whispered and started walking the way to the door.
Hinigit niya ang braso ko kaya ako napalingon sa kaniya.
"What do you mean?" namamaos ang boses niyang tanong.
"Just found a lawyer na mag-aasikaso sa divorce natin." I smiled.
Nanghina ang kaniyang kamay na nakahawak sa aking braso. And I took that opportunity para makaalis sa kwartong iyon. I didn't look at him anymore. Dirediretso ang lakad ko patungo sa pintuan.
As I closed the door, I leaned on it and started to cry. Pero agad ko iyong pinunasan. I need to be strong.
I'm slowly caressing my tummy, "Don't worry baby, we can live without your Dad."
