Life times two

If only I knew

Everyone says you're supposed to look into someone's eyes as they speak to you, but if you're really into what someone is saying, or if you just simply have an appreciation for the all beautiful pieces that the human face gives you everyday, then you won't.

When Martin Wood, a friend I made in poetry club last year, was telling me aboud his day God, I wanted to switch bodies.

Not only was he beautiful, but he probably had the most beautiful day in the world, because nothing happened. His friends were still the same. He didn't have to worry about some illegal affair twisting the silver lining of truth. He was never going to have to eventually testify in court. Nope his life was just... swell.

I clench my fist thinking about this, but when I think about the fact that Martin has only ever had one girlfriend my had relaxes.

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As I bike home I think about Martin the whole time, I wish I had the confidence to kiss him right on his dumb old face but it wouldn't matter anyway. My parents are quite protective.

I'm sure you're tired about hearing my problems though.

However you chose to listen, why are you listening anyway?

You probably think all this is boring, you're probably drifting off to sleep in your comfy little bed.

Well for those listening still, for some odd reason, here's what happened when I got home.

I came home, hugged my little brother, and though it was 7:00pm I told my parents I wasn't hungry. I really wasn't, and I thought nothing but sleep would make me happy right now. I flopped onto my bed, snuggled up next to Eeyore, and drifted away.

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Normally when I have dreams they're about some insane event happening where it's the end of the world and everyone's turning into aliens or something(Don't ask).

Today was different though.

I don't necessarily remember a lot, but I do remember feeling such a comforting warmth, such a soothing breath.

I felt like he understood me with every word.

I just wish I knew who he was.

*sorry these are so short high school and theatre has been a tad bit stressful, it's consumed most of my mind right now so..... I guess I'll see ya as soon as possible!

Ps: gonna audition for A Christmas Carol and Newsies so comment who you think I should audition for!