Taking Risks

Chapter 1

I'm usually very good at sharing my emotions, letting go of all my issues... just breathing. But with him everything just jumbles up. He's my best friend, so you know I have to try. He was there when everything started falling apart after the guidance counsellor, nothing made sense and all I wanted to do was sleep.

" Avaaaaa!! It's 11:00am! Get up!! " My Mother yells from downstairs, the kitchen I assume.

I groan and roll over to face my blank, lifeless wall. That's how I feel.

My dog Judo, prances into my room and takes a sip of his water, well my water but he claimed it.

I sit up with my legs dangling over the edge of my bed, my scars show, making my Monday morning even worse then it already is.

It's the second month of my second year in high school, a lot has changed I have to say. Ethan is my saviour, also my best guy friend. He puts up with me and I swear I don't know what I would do without him

Speaking off, I get a text from him.

* Hey little girl, you almost ready? I will be at your house in 20 min ;) *

* Could you make that 20 min extra long? Pretty please for me? ;) ;) *

* God damn you and your cute pleading *

I put on my uniform, green and yellow skirt and a white collared blouse. I clip my Tiffany & Co charm bracelet that my two best friends, Sarah and Kendall got me for my 15th birthday.

I quickly pet Judo and rush into the bathroom I share with my 17 year old brother, Aidan. He is just getting out and pushes me as he walks out of the small room.

" Dibshit." He mutters.

Isn't he a charmer?

I splash cold water onto my face then dry my face. I apply little foundation and concealer, then brush mascara through my naturally long lashes. I run a brush along my hair then look at my reflection in the mirror.

I look like a fake bitch.

I remove my foundation and concealer, I keep my mascara... much better. I slide down the bathroom door and just stare at the ceiling. It would be so much nicer to be in PJ'S right now. Fuck school.

My phone buzzes bringing me back into the world.

* Hey I'm here, I'm gonna knock come down *

As soon as I get it I here a loud bang on the door.

" Ethan!! Awe it's nice to see you, how was your weekend? *

I can't picture my mother squeezing his cheeks and kissing his forehead, if she can reach it that is...

I better get down there, I grab my bag and head down the stairs. I stop at the the last step and hide behind the wall as I listen to my mother asking Ethan questions.

" Are you and Ava a thing now? " My mother slyly asks.

Before Ethan has time to answer I walk down the last step. I go into the kitchen very loudly making sure I am heard.

" Hey little girl " Ethan smiles.

I return the smile

" Okay Mom, I will be home at 5, love you"

" Bye sweetie! Love you too "

I walk out the door and look up at Ethan's bright blue eyes. I take a deep breath and walk down my porch stairs.

"You know I hate school." I tell Ethan.

"Why? You loved it last year,"

"Yeah I know but everyone are bitches now, look at Katie, she hates me, god only knows why. "

" Hey well Ava, you have me. You have Sarah and Kendall."

" Yeah, I love you guys. "

We get to the end of my street, I don't live to far from school. Ethan and I don't speak for the rest of the two minutes we walk. I know he wants to say something. I sneak a glance at him and see that he looks worried.

We get to school and I look at Ethan and smile.

I see Sarah, I run up to her. She turns and hugs me.

" Hey Ava, what do you have first period?"

"Health, dibshit, I have it with you!"

" Aha oops, okay let's go in I was just waiting for you "

Sarah and I walk into school and it feels like everyone is staring at me.