Lost puppy

nobody knows

Doesn't nobody knows what I go threw to try to seem like everything is okay nd everything is not okay I'm hurting inside my father doesn't love but that not nothing new he been didn't love since I was born he doesn't wanna come see me he loves his other kids but not me my boyfriend doesn't even look like he doesn't wanna be with me he called me a thot twice nd he said I sucked dick in Tompkins he do love me any more my mother is going threw it with her own man my grandmother has her own things she's going threw I have a whole baby in my stomach because of my boyfriend he's saying he wants nd I have nobody I'm only 15 I never got to live like i didn't have to worry bout anything because I do I gotta worry bout where we going live if we don't pay the rent or if we gonna have food in my house for next mouths and don't nobody loves me because I don't even love myself I hate myself I don't wanna be in new york any more I'm always in the streets and like I said before I got all these nigga that my mom was with that wanna try to act like my father but I don't have a father don't nigga love me I'm on my own in the world nd I look back at my friends and it's like everything okay with there family they getting sneaker every week they always going out nd I'm looking like don't know nobody loves me but I act like I got it too like i don't need nobody's help like i say to everybody I don't need you and I don't want your help I never live like i depend on other people cus I don't I don't need my mother I don't need my grandmother who I do need is my real father to show that he's there for me and that he loves me because this is why I'm like this because every day I think bout that man like i couldn't live with him I'm 15 years old and don't nobody love me I ain't got nobody but myself and I wanna go live with my dad I do I want his love and I want to say baby girl I love you I want him to hold me like everything alright but when is that ever going to happen to me when is something good ever going to happen to me when am I going to be happy when does everything ever going to be right for me  when..