Perfect 「 zen x mc 」

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   you look down at the stack of clothing in front of you . the multi colored and organized stack of clothing that you will be taking on your trip . looking back onto your list to make sure you had everything , mainly just the most important things such as underwear , bras , and extra shirts and stuff . satisfied with what you put together you stood up to go find a swimsuit . you didn't have much time to order or buy a new one , because of the fact that you will be leaving tomorrow afternoon .
digging through your drawer , throwing out any article of clothing you didn't need or didn't interest you .
finally finding all the bathing suits you liked , you placed a hand on your chin . Thinking carefully as your eyes examined the couple different fabrics .
one was a simple purple bikini
the other was a ( f/c ) bikini almost type of bathing suit , the top comes off the shoulders and covers up some of the upper half of your stomach , which is a plus because - you know - .  the bottoms were like your ordinary bottoms but a small skirt with a cut on the side was attached .
the last bathing suit laid out for you to choose from what a blue and pink tankini.

what would zen want me to wear

you say to yourself as you looked over all the pieces of clothes once again .

we all know he would want me to wear something sexy

after a couple more minutes you decided on the ( f/c ) complicated bikini , because of the fact that it covers up some of the things you don't wanna show .
picking up the swimsuit carefully and placing it in the pile of all your other clothes you look over at zen , who was in the closet picking out some clothes for himself .
you placed the clothes you decided to bring along into a suitcase along with toiletries and beach towels . the zipper glided along the edge of the bag until it stopped to signal it was done zipping up .
with a triumphant grin on your face you stood up and looked at zen " need any help ? " you asked the male .
" not now but thanks love " the silver haired male responded

you nod at him and walk out of the room , sitting on the couch and opening up your phone to check the chatroom .

[ ( MC ) has entered the chat ]

Yoosung★; ( MC ) !!
Jumin Han; hello
Jumin Han; are you getting ready for the RFA trip ?
( MC ); just finished packing , zen is still getting ready tho :|
Yoosung★; he always over packs for trips , he like a girl sometimes .
( MC ); you could say that ,,
( MC ); so everyone is coming on the trip jumin ?
Jumin Han; yes , even V and Searan . which is shocking .
( MC ); oh wow , V is coming ?
Yoosung★; V is coming ??¡!
Jumin Han; yes , V is coming on our trip .
( MC ); amazing ^^
( MC ); Yoosung are you excited ? You'll be able to get away from LOLOL for a while and hang with  all of us :)
Yoosung★; of course I'm excited !!
Yoosung★; but I had to tell all my guild mates to not do anything really cool without me ,,
( MC ); aw that sucks
Jumin Han; this will be healthy for you Yoosung ,
( MC ); I second jumin
Yoosung★; ^^;
( MC ); oh hey , I think I hear zen calling for me , I'll see all y'all tomorrow !! I'm so excited !
Yoosung★; bye ( MC ) ^^
Jumin Han; have a pleasant evening

            [ ( MC ) has left the chatroom ]

you set your phone down and get off the couch , following zens voice back to your bedroom .
walking into the door you see zen sitting on top of a suitcase filled to the brim with clothing and other things .  you mentally facepalm and walk up to him . " goodness babe how much do you need . " you say to him , getting down on your knees to be at level with the luggage . " this is just main necessities " he said with a slight chuckle . you rolled your eyes and zipped up the suitcase . " there you go " you said to the silver haired male , lifting your head up so your ( e/c ) eyes could stare into his ruby red ones .
the male smiles at you and places his finger under your chin , lifting your face up to be at level with his . he starts leaning in , until there was no space between his lips and your lips . you kissed him back of course , but pulled away just a couple seconds after .
his lips were soft , like always . are all actors lips that soft ? but they also filled you with this weird warmth , and calmed you down . almost as if saying , there's no need to worry I'll love you forever .
zen smiled at you and got up from his spot on the luggage case . leaving the room , and also leaving you alone with your thoughts .
your finger found it way to your lips .
gosh , you're acting like this is your first time kissing zen .
you frown to yourself , thinking about how selfish you've been .
selfish for thinking that zen would ever dare to leave you for some else .
selfish for doing this to yourself just to be like someone else .
s e l f i s h

you hug your knees for your chest , feeling your eyes starting to water .
pathetic , why are you crying .
you don't know .
you don't know why you were crying . maybe it's because , you've had all your emotions bottled up and you're finally letting some out .
as the tears rolled down your ( skin tone ) cheeks , you tried your best to keep quiet . that way zen doesn't hear you and catch you crying .
god you were such an ugly crier .

you stand up , wobbly of course , because your vision is blurred due to the tears in them . you look ahead , into the mirror and seeing ( e/c ) orbs staring back at you . your mascara dripped down under your eyes , almost making it look like you had a bad smoky eye .
you wipe your eyes on the back of your palm , only making it worse and smearing your makeup and getting it all over your hand . you sigh and walk out of the room . careful to not come into contact with zen .

silently you walk to the bathroom , stumbling a bit . you reach the white door that holds the bathroom on the other end , fumbling with the knob , still trying to be as quiet as possible . you open the door and slide in .
but before you could zen managed to get a glimpse at you and your mascara stained face .
with worry he walks over and knocks on the door .
" love , are you okay ? " he ask , his voice echoing in your mind .

                             are you okay ?

wiping the smeared mascara off you answer him .

                                 " I'm fine "

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thanks for reading again :))
I'm not sure I'm okay with where this is going and idk if it's confusing or not but I'm trying my best
Some filler chapters will be uploaded soon and they will be more fluffy and crack than this angst thing I have going on .

thanks for sticking with me and my awful writing <3