The title says it all. It's a diary. So, I'm expecting everyone to just ignore this. Just wanting to find a personal diary I can access anywhere and anytime. And, yeaaaa. I know I can just buy a notebook which has it's lock, but NO. Writing is tiring especially when the day seems too long so, I'm giving wattpad a try to be my personal diary. :)
Maybe, you're reading this, which I hope you shouldn't be, and thought I might be some crazy girl because who would make a diary where everyone can possibly read this? Yas, I know. But I don't know. I just feel like it. And besides, I am a secret reader. Nobody knows I even exist here in the wattpad world! :)) AAAAAND, I waaaaant to practice English. Because I think I am the worst person who can't compose a simple sentence in English with the right words and might break the rules of correct grammar. ;)
And maybe, I just wanted to find someone whom I can share everything. :)
July 21, 2014
It's been days since typhoon Glenda hit the land. And by hitting the land, I mean destroyed the school's surroundings and some of the buildings. During the long weekend, I've been staying inside my room for 2 days - Wednesday and Thursday. My sister just bought me meals from the cafeteria. It's sooooo boring with no electricity and sometimes, the dormitory runs out of water too. All I can possibly do to enjoy myself is to listen to music. Too disappointed because I unistalled my wattpad app cs I've been too hooked up in reading stories after another. It's time-consuming, yaknow. I can't focus on academics with these stories running on my mind. Like, what will happen next on the story I am reading at the moment, or when will be the next update? Something like that. Going on, me and my sister had decided to buy some stuffs last friday, had the time to chill at starbucks (coffee-free), and we went to church last sabbath. Yesterday was a blast too! Me, my sister, one of my roommates (Shayne), and two guys (Gladden & Kuya Ace), decided to meet at Paseo and searched for a cafe where we can charge our gadgets and at the same time, we can have access to the internet. As soon as we found one, we went in and ordered something. I immediately updated my IG account (@chavezmae). And watched some trailers of SDTG because sad to say, I can't watch it in any movie houses. Why? Because I am a Seventh-Day Adventist. ;) We spent almost 3 hrs there. And when we were bored already, we decided to drop by at NBS. Because I think buying books is not my priority ATM, tho I already bought Eleanor and Park, and several books/novels at Book Sale, I decided to just stay there and read "Fangirl" by Rainbow Rowell. I was at page 95 already when my friends told me we should go back now at the campus because it's getting late. I begged just to let me finish up to page 100. After reading Chapter 9, we were already on our way to our school. Still no electricity, but the generator was already up, letting the current flow to the bulb, lighting the hallways. It's better than not having light
at all during the night. I thought. But it stops at 10 pm. Just on time for sleeping. :)
And, finally it's monday! :)) Unfortunately, we already have classes. And my class schedule starts at 7:00am. During first period, I totally got bored. It's Phil.History -_- so, I decided to continue reading "State of Jane". The story really happens in real life. Well, that's what I thought. :D I just finished reading it earlier before I decided this thing - diary in wattpad. :) I'm offline right now, cs you see, there's no electricity still which means no wifi. :| Oh!! And I remembered my teacher in Principles on Health. I really like her. She's so considerate. And I think she knows what her students are feeling and thinking. (on the other hand, I think I like her because she impresses me on how she can speak everthing I have on mind) She even asked the class which one will we prefer, "have class w/o electricity or no class at all and the students can just go to the respective homes". Well, the answer's too obvious. But, there's a lot of faculty in a university which means, she can just suggest it and let everyone decide what is best. Well, students are hoping we won't have classes tho. Hahaha. Almost all. Classes ended too early so I'm working on this diary right now. Too lazy to read another story because I just. Just. It's still 4:45pm tho.
And while I am on my own world, I realized people around me never appreciated my efforts anymore. It's like, they're expecting me to be like that - generous and all- most of the time. I wonder what it would be like when I haven't met them. It's too sad because I really thought I can count on them. Well, yes, I can count on them, but it's different. Tho, I used to call them my bestfriends. Now, it's MAYBE. I hang out with them most of the time, but sometimes, I get awkward, a hint of embarrassment - tho I can still be myself, I mean the real me, around them, and sometimes, asking some favors is a big thing to me because I really don't want to bother any of my friends. And, sometimes, I think I'm too dependent on them or vice versa. I really don't know. But, I feel alone most of the time. Not literally alone. Yea, they can be around me, I can see them, but I can't feel the warmth and the comfortable feeling I used to feel whenever I'm with them. It's just sad. So sad that I don't have anyone whom I can trust and we can just share everything, as in EVERTHING we want to share. ):)
I got bored this evening. So, I decided to reminisce my highschool years by reading my diary. Haa! I've been a secretary for how many years since elementary. So, writing WAS fun. I completely forgot how fun it was today. :3 So, while reading, I laughed genuinely as to how stupid I am with sharing nonesense activities I had back then. Well, maybe they were worth remembering when I wrote them. But now, I doubt it. Haha. I even wrote down some corny conversations with my crushes, and how I get confused on choosing which is which that inspires me truly. :D Well, that was me. And will always be. :)) Yaaaay. Excited for my next entries! It's almost 12am. Ain't sure if I can already post this. Aaaaaand, classes are suspended tomorrow!! Yaaaay. ^_^ I'm sure there will be a lot of drafts on this personal diary. ;) Excited for posting this first entry tho. Hoping for the soooooonest (((: GoodNight Watty! :) XOXO
